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Assignment # 4 the BIG Hurt
Assignment # 4
The Big Hurt
(other then Frank Thomas)
The Big Hurt
(other then Frank Thomas)
After careful consideration, The Big Hurt and the offender involved, whom I still hold a resentment towards can be described as:
Myself.. My inner most feelings of Selfishness, Greed & Conceitedness... I am my Own Biggest Hurt.. I grew up the Youngest of three Kids (2 older half sisters), the Only Boy & my Fathers Only Child.. I was raised as Spoiled as a Poor kid could be raised.. Now I am 27, a skip & a jump from 28.. & I find myself at times carrying around these traits.. Why? Why do I allow myself to live my life 'Inside the Box' of yesterday.. It is Time that I Give Myself more then I Take for Myself...
Two emotions I feel when I hold the offense in mind are:
1. Sickness.. All I can think about is 'how in heck have I let all this time go by without Right-ing this Wrong'.. I should be a better Brother to my Sisters, a better Son to my Parents & More Positive Member of my Community...
2.Sadness.. Deep Sadness... I have let many oppurtunities to Help those in need Slip through my finger tips.. No More..! I can be doing so much more Good in this World...
One way holding this resentment benefits my health and happiness is:
Holding these Resentments do NOT Benefit my Health & Certainly does not make me Happy.. If anything these Resentments are Burning a Hole in my Stomach as well as my Heart... Releasing these Resentments & becoming a more Giving Person will Center me & make me Stronger.. Mind, Body & Soul...
Two feelings I would enjoy if I were able to completely eliminate this resentment from my mind and heart are:
1. Eagerness.. To Go out into the World & make it a Better Place with every Step, with every Word & with ever Breath...
2. Zealous & Contagious.. To be a Man on a mission of Love 'n Hope & to infect Happiness into the World around Me.. Ghandi once said, "An ounce of practice is worth more than tons of preaching." & In light of the Worlds current situation; Economic, Political, Ethical.. Its time for us to 'Practice what we Preach', Starting with myself...
Two ways my health and life would improve as a result of completely forgiving the offender and letting go of this resentment are:
1. Improved Happiness.. No longer is my Being dictated by the Depthless Temptations of self indulgence.. Now I can find Depth in Simplicity...
2. Improved Over All Health.. Deeper Connecctions & Meaning in Life...
A nonjudgmental, unconditionally supportive person I can talk through my grievance story with is:
My Family.. My Mother, Father & Sisters...
My Big Forgive Story
This is my grievance story which begins with the hurtful incident and how I felt about it, the resentment I held, and how I unselfishly and courageously granted the offender forgiveness with grace and mercy, letting it go once and for all: I was Born February 28th, 1982.. My Mother was married before she met my Father & had Two beautiful daughters.. My Sisters, Brandy & Nicole... Soon after when Brandy was 4 & Nicole was 2 there Father passed away from a rare brain tumor, I never met him.. a few years later Our Mother met my Father & two years later here I am... My Parents Never Got Married but they have always lived with eachother, Strange... Growing Up I always got what I wanted, within Reason.. but I Remember my Sisters never got much.. I was encourged to Play Sports & to Socialize.. they stayed home & cleaned... looking back I feel Sad that I couldnt of been there Big Brother & made sure that they had everything... Both of my Sisters ended up Great.. Brandy is a High School English Teacher in Downey, Ca & Nicole is a Elementary School Teacher in Pheonix, Az.. From this Day Out I will be the Brother to my Sisters that they never knew they had.. My Grievanve Story is not the story of a single incident, it is the Story of my Childhood.. it is a Story of a Brother, a Son.. & now a Man.. A Man who wants to be a better family member to mankind...
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Nice words, bro, good to get it out there and off your chest. Seems like you are getting some great insights into yourself early on.
Awesome! You have such wonderful intentions and I'm so proud of you! :-D
This is wonderful!! =)
This is an awesome to decide! Your sisters will learn to appreciate you . You became aware of it and are doing the right thing, Good for you!
That was really good Dick, you hit on some thiongs that ... Man, can I relate. You are a special guy my friend...keep rollin' in that "Right" direction... Talk Soon Your Friend, Justice
Kudos Richard, for getting this out there! Hope you are already feeling the freedom of letting this go and have made gains in reconnecting with your family! They DESERVE a healthy you as much as YOU deserve to live your best life!!
That was very moving and honest! Forgiveness is yours for the asking and already granted. I know you are the kind of man who can achieve the things you want to and support your family. Best to you!!! ~ Andrea
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