Bill Phillip's | Transformation

You only fail if you stop trying....

I've said this to my self more time than I'd like to remember.  I keep failing, but I keep trying, so I'm not failing, right?  Come on, guys....say it with me.  I've decided to re-commit my self to my Transformation.  There have been a few issues is recent weeks that have steered me off course.  I take responsibility for all of them...because we are all responsible for what we do in our life.  One issue was one of my best friends was diagnosed with Breast Cancer.  She doesn't have much family around, so I've accepted the challenge of traveling this journey with her.  I've attended the numerous Dr. appts., taken notes, gone to tests, accompanied her on her first chemo journey.  How God works.  I am in awe.  If I didn't have the type of career that I have, I wouldn't be around to be of assistance to her.  I'm struggling right now in my choosen field of employment, however, no other position would offer me the flexibility to do this for her.  God wants me to stay put.  So I'm listening.....struggling, but listening, and my struggling is nothing compared to the struggle my friend has in front of her.  My grass is greener.  I say I've failed, however, I've not.  I may have taken a detour in my own "physical" Transformation, but I have succeeded in my "inner" Transformation of being a better person.  So now on to the other areas of my life where I continue to succeed.  I've removed some unhealthy things in my life.  First and formost....I've removed "the" alcohol.  If you haven't followed my journey with this, you can read my other blogs, or the thread titled "Alcohol".  That should put you up to date.  I haven't had anything since May 15th.  Another unhealthy change is I've removed caffeine and any type of carbonated beverage.  O.K.  another good move in the right direction.  In the past two weeks, I've averaged 4 days a weeks riding my bike in the morning 9 miles in 45 minutes each day.  O.K.  Another step in the right direction.  I need to get my eating under control.  That seems to be what is holding me back.  That's where I feel that I have failed.   But as I said, you only fail if you stop trying, so everyday, I continue to try.  The last couple of months have been quite a journey.   A journey I wouldn't change for anything.  I'll just wait and see what God has planned for me next.  I'm sure it's gonna be grand!  ÜÜÜ