Bill Phillip's | Transformation

Getting Started

I'm in a process of transforming my whole life. Spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and even financially.

I currently weigh 350lbs. Trying to find the courage to just start. 

Strangely finding myself with unreasonable fears. Why am I fighting this process of change?

First of all, I DO NOT want to take a full body shot. Knowing full well that posting a picture of myself would force me to look at  the only  guilty member of this party.

Fear of writing down all my goals. As if staring into my soul will result in some sort of failure.

No longer would I be able to quietly blame others/ circumstances for my current state of health.

Its like my eyes have opened for the first time and I look down to find I have white knuckles from holding on to pain and bitterness for so long. Wondering why I ever grabbed hold of such things in the first place.

I've had a lot of struggles as well as medical problems that lead to my weight gain. However, I know whatever started my health problems... there is absolutly NO reason to stay this way!
 
I know G~d has given me so much in life.
I want to pay it forward by going to Africa.
Helping those in tribal life get fresh water and hope for their people!
There are now hundred of thousands of orphan children due to AIDS and wars in Africa.

Inside I am beautiful, exotic and have a sweet heart.
I want that reflected on the outside!