Bill Phillip's | Transformation

A new life beginning with my daughter and Me

I had a great day yesterday, in dact all day and sepeciallly last night. Acctually the best in years, not partying or anything like that, just  workouts and visiting with my daughter Sarah.
I went to the gym and taught my 2 classes yesterday morning and did my own workout, went shopping for a few things I neeed for the house and came home, then Bee called to go to the gym, ( Bee, is the hairdresser I was so upset with when she surprized me and did my hair bleach blonde and wouldn't cahnge it, I was so mad that I felt evil was eating me up inside so I went to her shop one day just to hug her and in my heart was forgiving her because I know she meant well and thought I would lok good and love it) I said what the heck and went again. We did the spin class and then stayed in the aerobic room talking and doing abs with 2 other friends. It was just enjoyable.  on the way home I called Bill to let him know I was on my way home. He said Sarah( my daughter that we had not been getting along with) called and wanted us to go visit her tonight, well I was around the cornor from her apt and the train was passing so I said well I can run by and visit a few minutes. He said yea do that. So I did. ( a few minutes became 3 hrs) This was the 1st time Sarah and I visited together in her apt and the 1st time being completely alone since the big blow up. We talked and talked about everything and anything. it was 6:45 when I got there and 10pm when I left , time flow by.
It was a whole new feeling, new atomosphere and new daughter and I'm sure she felt I was a new mama. I think we just passed the road to recovery and now on the road to happiness.

Sarah had been very independant her whole life, when we adopted her at 7 she was independant and to the point of defining, I had a very hard time coping with her and dealing with all the preasures. We augued alot until on day she hit me and I told her to get out. I called her later and told her that, I loved her and she was welcome to come home when she fell she was ready to not just say sorry, but feel sorry for her actions. She got her own apt and also changed her religion which I was not thrilled with..  Ok the reason was because I felt she was going to the extream. Penacoastal, no TV no makeup, no jewerly, no music except christian. no pants, just skirts or dresses.  She even worn a dress when the whole family went to Six Flags.  I thought that was stupid, but I am since this BE THE CHANGE CHALLENGE trying to look at myself inside out and figure out why I think that if people don't do things MY way that's it's wrong or stupid. I am trying to change. I changed my body thru BFL, a transformation unbelieavle for my age and all my health problems but I did it because I WANTED TO.  This is the st time in my 54 years I am thinking, You know the whole world can't be wrong, maybe it's me that needs a little tune up and adujustment.  I have still been doing my workouts because that's just my life now, it's my lifestyle to be healthy.  Now I am really focusing and consintrating on my inner spirital self and trying to be a better person, by giving more, forgiving and also forgetting, because I leanred that you can't really forgive if you don't forget it and keep dwelling on something and brining up the past. The past is the past, time to move forward.

Back to last night , as I said this was the 1st time Sarah and I visited together in her apt and the 1st time being completely alone since the big blow up on the july 4th wekened. We talked and talked about everything and anything. I was interested in her new found religion and asked questions, she was eager to explain, she got her bible out and we were talking over things in the bible.  The point was we were talking like two people should, not screaming not saying that's stupid, we were having a conversation. a few minutes quicky turned to 3 hrs. It was a whole new feeling, new atomosphere and new daughter and I'm sure she felt I was a new mama. I think we just passed the road to recovery and now on the road to happiness.

I am so grateful for a beautiful evening with my daughter, 

oh and I just weighed in this morning , I'm 128,  I was 128 the day Bill and I got married, Never thought I would see that number on the scale again.

Have a happy  day everyone
Love, Linda