Bill Phillip's | Transformation

From September 8 to October 30 -- WHEW!

Colleen, where have you been?!?  One thing I can pat myself on the back for is that I never stopped wanting this, never stopped talking with Hubbie about how much I wanted it.  Never stopped telling my spiritual facilitator how much I wanted this.

My persistence has been scatty, but at least I could think about going to the gym (when the effort seemed overwhelming), or at least I could just show up, or at least I could lift some weights before I left.  It has been very much up and down.  Partly the reason is that I determined to take a body/mind/spirit approach and my mind and spirit was also in poor shape.  

My spiritual facilitator had me running out a chain of incidents where I had harmed others and we covered many lifetimes where I saw myself harming others, some even now with me in this lifetime.  Of course this was punishing to me, just as when we go to the gym we punish ourselves because we know it is only going to make us better.

I think we are almost finished with this chain and I think I am ready for the big "AHA!!!".  The big EUREKA!!  I'm busting my bad karma forever, joy, joy!

This morning when I walked into the gym I announced "I think I'm on a roll!".  When I got on the stairstepper I noticed it was not with great effort as before.  As I pumped my arms and legs I started realizing how I was killing my bad karma and that I could laugh at it.  Then I visualized with great joy everyone else's negative energy hanging around them, ready to be activated and I saw underneath all that negative energy the beauty of each being (just like me) and I visualized myself coming to a point in my spiritual development where I could laugh at anyone's activated negative energy, or karma.

I know I have the eternal solution for all of our negative energies/karma.  I still have loved ones with current problems that I may or may not be able to help in time to prevent them from causing themselves trauma, but I know that I have the longterm solution and that the concept of exponential gain applies in the physics of spirit.

As far as Bill's exhortation to give, my heart is now able to give within boundaries.  This tin man is getting his heart back thanks to the example of people like Bill, and one of my favorite people, Amma, the hugging saint, www.amma.org/teachings/index.html.   

Amma sets an example of a devotional path which is a beautiful spiritual path if one can dream it and live it.  My path is more the psychotechnological route, but I LOVE getting my annual hug from Amma.  It keeps my heart and head balanced.

While working out at the gym I started to suspect that negative energies might even be encysted in the cells of the body, because both positive and negative emotions released with certain exercises and intensities. This is why Bill's Transformation program is crucial to body/mind/spirit development.

Thank you, Bill

peace and joy,

The New Me