Bill Phillip's | Transformation

I Actually Did It !! Thank you Bill Phillips

September 8, 2008 is start of Transformation Program

1. Day 1:  Upper Body day but did not go -- had a "good" excuse, but truthfully am fighting some unexamined fears.  I have heard that quitting and then starting again can be more freaky than starting for the first time.
2. Day 2:  Aerobics day but did not go -- the night before I had a beautiful visualization of myself running, and when I slept I had nightmares about running and hiding.  "Hiding" won out and I did not go on my aerobics day.   Hubbie helped me to run off some negative energies with messages about "run" and "hide".  I always yawn when the negative energies are discharging from my space.  Nice big yawns.
3. Day 3:  YAY!!! Lower Body day and I went   The intensity level was rather meek but my morale was fantastic.  I know I am going to have sore muscles, yay!  I have to decide where I am going to station myself in the gym -- on the upper level where the space is smaller or on the lower level where all of the machines are located -- and all of the people too.  Tomorrow is Aerobics Day.  NOTE:  Today I took the bus for the first time.

Diet:  Not highly controlled.  I ate some raw organic pumpkin seeds, drank "Ice Age" glacier water, and ate small portion of lamb carpaccio (with olive oil).

My gym had a special offer and I signed Hubbie up for the same price I am now paying -- 2 for the price of one.  He seems to be interested in squash or racquetball.

Spirit Work:  Today I have a session with my R3X Procedure practitioner.  She is helping me do a Lifetime Scan -- very therapeutic if you have lived as much life as I have, ha!  My poor grandmother used to sit at the dining room table and talk incessantly about her past and the people who mistreated her and her fears and anguishes and regrets, etc., etc., and I decided I did not want to have any regrets, and to forgive myself and everyone else for whatever happens, and that is why I decided to do a guided Lifetime Scan.   Clear out the deadwood :-)

Day 4:  Aerobic Day and I waited until Hubby came home and wrangled him to get me to the gym.  I used the bike and set it for a "fat burn" workout and worked in the peaks and gave it my all on the final peak.  Morale good as I walked out of the gym.  Of course, I know I did not push myself to the point of real pain.  I don't know if I really am motivated enough to go that far, but I do have a sense that I need to push a little harder each time and that should suffice.

Day 5-Friday:  Uppers Day and I worked out until I started to feel a bit dizzy and chilled.  I still feel awkward with the machines and weights and realize I have to sort of rehearse my moves before I get into the gym.  However I walked out of that gym happier than when I went in.

Spirit Work:  Today I had another Lifetime Scan session and today I looked at events that caused stress, including others causing themselves stress, thereby learning to see things through others too, not just from my own self-centered point of view.  I realized that if one is upbeat and playful then it is important that they choose their friends carefully because someone who is downbeat and very serious is more easily offended even by playfulness.

Diet:  More lamb carpaccio and raw organic pumpkin seeds plus roasted sheets of seaweed (yum!).

Day 6 - Saturday:  Aerobics Day and hubbie and I did a brisk walk (I know, I know, but we were up at the cottage, not near the gym and I really can't run yet).

Day 7 - Rest:  Boy, did I splurge on the apple crumb pie.  Otherwise the food was healthy, yum.  Hubbie's mom is a good cook.

Day 8 - Monday:  Lower Body Day.  Back to the gym and Hubbie came with me too.  He performed on some of the circuit machines.  I came away from the gym feeling chilled (liver depleted of glycogen?) and slightly dizzy and my legs felt like rubber.  No, I did not complete all of the exercises.  I was not perfect, but I know I'm doing better than I did before.  The quality of the workouts will improve.

Diet - I'm not having any problem eating small portions several times a day and everything is organic and non-processed.  My diet is protein heavy and light on the carbohydrates, especially grains.  I do like to indulge in olive oil.

NOTE:  97 days remaining of 15 weeks stint. 

Oh, BTW, do you recall how dramatic all of this was at the beginning?  I don't know if my R3X sessions have had anything to do with it but I have a much more blase attitude now.  I feel that I am just doing something that is part of my daily routine, just like eating, sleeping, brushing my teeth, etc.  Somehow it feels saner that way than some huge conflicting urges.  Don't get me wrong, I have been known to be very passionate about all of my endeavors, but I think the negative ridges were removed that had some dualities locked up on them and now I am less anxious about this endeavor.