Bill Phillip's | Transformation

Looking in the mirror

Wow was this ever a tough exercise to get through. I procrastinated in starting this challenge because of this exercise. First, there was denial: 'I've been BFL'ing for 3.5 years and I've achieved some great results, I am happy with myself and really don't need to do anything else.' Next was a pretty dark number of days right after the cruise (see first post) where a lot of introspection occured. Finally, I went to Starbucks, ordered a skinny latte and swore I would not leave the store until I had this DONE!

I can't articulate what a painful & gut wrenching exercise it was. It feels even worse typing it up right now.

Here is what I saw/felt:

• SAD
• Hurting
• CLOSED
• Procrastinator
• Selfish
• LOST
• Uninspired
• Unhappy
• LAZY
• Hoarder
• FAT
• Coach potato - TV hound

Now the good part:

• A good partner
• Loving myself enough to truly BELIEVE I deserve it
• Passionate
• Authentic
• Giving
• Joyful
• Clutter-free (free of mental and physical clutter)
• The REAL me
• Proud & humble

Inside the rectangle:

• Ideal body weight in a healthy way
• Athletic & muscular
• Energized
• Light on my feet
• Toned/solid
• Abs - really defined
• Lean and strong

OK. It's out there. I want what I heard the speakers on the Cruise talk about. They made me realize that I have come only part of the way. I need to go the full course. I want what they have. I want to FEEL like I am getting the best out of life by being of service to others.