Chemo Day 12-23-10Cancer doesn't recognize the Holiday Season so off we went to the next treatment! I come bearing gifts!!! I have a framed Santa picture, and a gift bag from the girls with all the wonderful crafts they made. It makes my heart happy to share the love of my family.
Today I feel happy and energized and ironically so is Catherine! So this day of chemo is especially fun. She smiles a lot, and laughs and I can see her eyes brighten with joy. Even through all of this she makes the comment she always does about being scared. She always fears this day because she is a doctor, she knows what these horrible chemicals are doing to her body and its a fearful thing to say the least...so today is a good day to shift her thoughts and create a bright loving space for her mind.
Fortunately today our nurse is Renee. She is my neighbor, she lives 3 houses down. So we talk and laugh and Catherine enjoys the lightness of our spirits ~ lifting hers. Somehow we start talking about needles and veins - oh I know why, because Renee stuck the needle into her port and Catherine didn't even FLINCH!! I was like "didn't that hurt" and she says "yes" and I was like WOW you're one tough cookie...so I talk about how needles creep me out, and veins do too, even my own veins. Renee says "And you bring HER for support" we all laugh and I say "NO she brings me for entertainment" We all had a great laugh at that one!!
My heart is over flowing with love and appreciation for the fact that one, she allows me to be a part of this journey with her and two, that I am capable of spending this time with her. In the past, my jobs might not have afforded me this luxury.
It is a blessing, to say the least, to make a difficult time in someones life that much easier.
The benadryl kicks in and she is off to a peaceful nap while the chemicals flow through her body. I am grateful she has this time to rest as well. She lives a crazy busy life and desperately needs this rest.
I leave to finish some last minute shopping and also to help her by picking up a few gifts for her family as well. This time for me has left me smiling and joyful ~ so even though the stores are packed, its raining, and traffic is a nightmare, NOTHING is taking the smile from my face or my heart.
The gift of GIVING is powerfully healing.
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