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Creating Balance
I love awareness. It may be slow to come to the surface, but in time, when we’re ready I suppose that awareness is gained, lessons are learned, growth occurs, that enables us to do and be more.
Last year was the hardest of my life, and I've been through a lot in my 41 years. I got my moms’ "fatal" diagnosis of her returning cancer and a plan for the next 2 years to go to chemo every Friday to manage it – not cure it. Taking care of her was my focus not my own personal grief – and that’s ok.
Helping others took the focus off the sadness, fear anger and resentment going on deep within me. But you have to be careful…..sometimes YOU get lost and fail to recognize your own needs. Last years lessons bring about this years goals and intentions – creating a healthy balance of caring for others and recognizing and honoring my own.
Even though my focus shifted to others, my sadness remained just buried inside me. My fear of my future with the separation and ending of my job was great (but I acted like it didn’t phase me) on top of my moms health and life hanging by a string.
I realize now I was NOT dealing with my own “stuff” – doing what I always had done and that’s shove it aside, stuff it deep, act strong, and not let it run its due course. Creating stress that I ignored. This year I will take that lesson and do better.
We are all a beautiful, imperfect work in progress ~ the journey continues!
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Awesome you are an inspiration to me!!
Oh how I can relate to what you are going through with your Mom. Praying that God continues to fill you up as you continue to pour out to others...
Mellie, I stumbled across this today as I was cruzing thru the site. You are such an amazing person and I am glad you have got to know you a little bit over the past 10 wks. You are so genuine! love you girl. ~ marla
Hey Mellie! I have been thinking about you! We should definitely have a chat. I miss you guys but I am glad I stopped in to check things out this evening. This year has been difficult here too.... but, I am learning and expecting... again! Donald and I will have a baby boy here in about 10 weeks to add to the brood. It's been a bright spot in a difficult winter. Can't wait for spring to shine some light on us... offering perspective and hope (plus a little less baby wieght to carry with me.) I am sorry to hear about your mom. I am sure it is a daily struggle but if anyone I have ever enountered can grow from it... it would be you. Thinking of you....
Love this post Mel, we have had to deal with my Mother in law passing away with cancer, it takes it's toll on you for sure. So proud your making a positive change for yourself and others. Balance & being centered is what I'm searching for, hope to find it with this journey.God Bless you and yours. =)
I'm awakening to an awareness and understanding of buried stress and the the process of overcoming. Keep moving Ever Forward!! You are are living inspiration and testimony!!! -Donald
Amen my friend! It is easy to get deep into the rush or responsibility of helping others and little by little we leave less care or balance for ourselves. Finding Balance between our needs and the needs of others, plus the endless list of responsibilities is a "balancing act" and not an easy one. You know this very well and I am sure your Heart is the one raising the awareness. Please continue to be strong and take care of yourself. Love & Light - Yoly
I am so proud of you for continuing on despite the obstacles. You are a miracle person inside and out! Chris
This dear one is such an amazing journey you have started and I for one am excited to be on it with you! I am sorry for the things that you have to grow through now, but am honored that you are awaking to the need to nurture self too! I know we have only just met but I was unaware of some of the parellel things we are doing and have faced! You can do this and thanks for sharing your caring time with all of us! Sad or happy I for one am honored to spend time with you! warmest wishes and HUGS too, Rebecca
Mellie, you deserve at least as much love and attention as you give others, which probably means you have a lot of catching up to do. If I can help, please let me know. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Your self-awareness is so inspiring Mellie. I'm glad you get to focus on you for a bit. Doing so will help more people than you know... ~Al
Hi..was going to jump on your profile and say "hi" and then I just read your blog..so I thought I'd write to you on here. Just wanted to give you a hug, and say that I am still here if you need anything. Lots of love, Rachelle
Blessings for your journey, Jess L