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Reaching out
I think that life is full of tests, and our response to those tests help create who we are.
As some of you may know I don't have much of a relationship with my mother (that raised me) but she asked me to do her a favor. She does a bible study with about 6 young women at Borders every Monday and they all express a desire to get into better shape for various reasons. So I told her over the phone to send them here! Gave her the website, my user name so they could contact me when they got here and that was that.
Then she asked me to come talk to them. My immediate reaction was NO WAY! Just tell them to come to this site or email me. But my heart overrode my mind and I said ok...because I know it will potentially help make a huge difference in their lives if they actually listened to me, felt my intensity and sincerity in wanting to help them transform.
This is not something I want to do......last time I ran into her at Borders she was with a young woman doing her bible study and she went to introduce me and couldn't figure it out....literally! I had to say "I'm her daughter" because she was all "This is Melissa...my................." (long pause trying to think). I was not too thrilled with that. For me I don't want to sit there and discuss something I am very passionate about with her sitting there looking at me........trying to look proud at the least, faking sincere emotion for the "show" factor.
I know that may not make sense to you all, but I don't need her approval anymore, and I don't want her to think I am doing it for her, because I am not. I am doing it for THEM. Yes, I have forgiven her, but that doesn't mean that I will put myself in the positition to be hurt by her again. I choose not to. But I remain cordial, and respectful, but I don't like to be around her. I know that is something I need to work on, we are all works in progress, we all still have our faults and weaknesses....this is mine.
So if you all wouldn't mind shooting a few prayers my way on Monday morning. Let my heart be free of anger and my words flow to touch their lives......
mellie; I have a very difficult with my mother as well so reading this I felt your pain, try to remember your own words, don't allow yourself to be hurt anymore by her words or actions. I know how difficult that is and sometimes we are successful at being strong against the negativitiy and then there are days when it gets to you! Just keep being the strong wonderful woman you are! You can't control how people (especially relatives) act all you can do is control how you react! God Bless YOU! linda
Mellie, you are an amazing woman and I will definitely pray for you. Trust God to lay the words upon your heart and allow Him to use you in a powerful way. May His will be done in your situation. Your greatest strength lies within you! God bless you always and know that you are beautiful inside and out! Much love, Kimmie
Mellie - Hi it's me ;) Do you know what I'm going to say? Just do your best girl. When all is right with your soul, no one can steal your joy. Forgiveness is an incredible, incredible thing. We will pray for you, you pray for her. Don't take anything personally Monday. What she says and does is not about you at all, it's about her. If you are positive and loving with your word and consistently asking yourself, "is this the best i can do" and answer that with a yes, than you will know peace. She can't take it unless you allow it. I'll be praying for you and for a new level of consciousness to open itself up to you so that you never revisit a place of anger, frustration or anything negative with your encounters with her. Love you!!! Denise
Mellie ~ Wish I could be there with you, but I will send prayers. Be you, and all that you are and try really hard not to 'read into' her reactions. You have a great purpose in life and are being called up right now to serve that greater purpose. Being conscious of your feelings is major growth. You will do great! Lots of love coming your way! ~S~
MEL...wowie. That's a changed heart, my good buddy. Keep seeking that changed heart, because it does a body...and a mind...and a soul...and a life...GOOOOOOOOOD. Proud of YOU!! ~Kevin :-)
Mellie that's a huge step to show your are a true woman of your words. You are showing you maturity and you will be helping others. This is outstanding :)
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