Bill Phillip's | Transformation

A promise to myself

During these next 18 weeks I promise to myself that I will not indulge in any unhealthy behavior. I will not sacrifice myself for any outside validation. I need to find the strength within myself and completely devote myself to these 18 weeks. I will not date. I will not let myself get off track. I will not indulge any unhealthy vices that have led me to become who I am right now. I need to do this to find the strength within myself. No one perso...

Transformation Purpose

At this point in my life this transformation is not even a choice. I feel it is a lifeline to a healthier, happier, new and improved me. I am sooooo tired of quitting almost everything I start. I am tired of never having enough energy. I am so tired of letting my negative thoughts get the best of me and then waste half the day (who am I kidding the whole day) in bed being sad and depressed. I am tired of never giving anything 100%. I am tired of ...

Need to focus

I usually deal with my problems by running away from them, rather than dealing with them head on. I have been trying to deal with sadness and getting over a relationship by keeping busy. Filling my life with lots by keeping busy and going out, meeting people just to distract myself, and by tuning out by watching way too much TV. Lately I have been very social and not really dealing with stuff that I'm feeling, just basically distracting myse...

Tuesday

Today was such a busy day. I had to go to a friend's funeral. It was sad, but the message from the pastor was a good one. He said don't waste your life away because tomorrow is never guaranteed. That message really hit home for me. I always used to say tomorrow I will do better and tomorrow never came. If we mess up own up to it, forgive ourselves, and start over right then and there don't wait til tomorrow. I have wasted almost 20 years putting ...

Monday

I am having a hard day today. Maybe it was because I didn't wake up when I said I was going to and didn't work out first thing today. Still haven't worked out. Maybe it was writing my forgiveness letter, and the feelings really started to come out throughout the night, and I'm still dealing with it. I guess I was looking at it as something I had to accomplish and cross off my list but I didn't take into account the feelings that would come up. So...

Forgiveness

Mom- she physically and verbally abused me, not protecting me from neighbor, being mean to my grandmother, by being controlling, and trying to run my life, not instilling confidence in me, by telling me I’m good for nothingLesson: I know that she was raised by abusive mother who was also controlling, she was only raising me by her example, and she has redeemed herself by being supportive in my older yearsMom I forgive you for the way you we...

I feel grateful

I feel so grateful to this community and its loving support. This is exactly what I need in my life right now. I don't feel alone anymore, this really warms my heart. I am ready for the transformation and can not wait to see all the changes along the way. ...

Change is on its way.

Yes!!! I am ready for this transformation. I am looking forward to being a part of this community and give many thanks to Bill for creating it. I am physically, emotionally, and spiritually ready to make lifetime changes in my life. It starts with my body and from there who knows..... I know that this will be challenging, but rewarding. I will not only meet my goals, but surpass them....