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Transformation Purpose
At this point in my life this transformation is not even a choice. I feel it is a lifeline to a healthier, happier, new and improved me. I am sooooo tired of quitting almost everything I start. I am tired of never having enough energy. I am so tired of letting my negative thoughts get the best of me and then waste half the day (who am I kidding the whole day) in bed being sad and depressed. I am tired of never giving anything 100%. I am tired of being 40 years old and complaining about the state of my life. I am tired of faking for everyone how happy I am, and how I am fine being single. I need to mean that and be fine with who I am. I am tired of constantly looking for happiness everyplace but inside of myself. I am tired of letting people hurt me, when I knew they were not good for me in the first place. I am tired of working harder to make other people happier than I make myself. I am soooo tired of always being tired; physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I am so tired of not following through. I am tired of being unhealthy, feeling sluggish, and of feeling ashamed of my body and myself. I am tired of always making excuses, or saying tomorrow I’m going to start. Well tomorrow never comes and I have wasted 20 years saying tomorrow.
So this is why I am starting this transformation and finishing it. Ok I admit I have had relapses and have not even now given it my all. But this is it!!!! I am tired of not honoring my promises to myself!!!! I am counting 18 weeks from Wednesday July 16, 2008 to November 19, 2008. One week after my birthday. I need this transformation to become healthier inside and out. I need to transform myself emotionally (the way I deal with stuff), physically (from eating properly to working out), and spiritually (my relationship with God). I need this transformation to be a role model for others. I need this transformation for my sanity.
I am so grateful to all of my new transformation friends who I will take with me on this journey. I need all your strength, support, and wisdom.
Thank You all for being there for me to help guide me through these next 18 weeks. Hopefully we will all meet in Hawaii next March.
Bernice, I could have written this too! I so have the same feelings you do. Doesn't it feel good to be taking charge and making a difference? My attitude and energy level are already different. There's really something to this plan of eat right, exercise, and think positively. Can't wait to hear more about your changes!
I am so proud of this blog. You have come a long way since the day you joined transformation. You are alive with fire, and I cannot wait to watch you transform yourself into this woman of self-honor. You have so much in this world to offer, I am blessed to witness your journey. GO GET 'EM Bernice, and don't look back!
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