Bill Phillip's | Transformation

Day 27 - Never Forget What We Are

Last night I was put in one of those situations that has the potential to derail my Transformation.  My 6th grade son had a little league football game.  It was an exciting game...won my just one touchdown.  Fortunately, my son was on the winning side. 

The game didn't finish until 9:45 pm.  So afterwords, my boy was pretty hungry.  Not much is open that late in the smallish town we live in, so we ended going to a local Fried Chicken place...sort of a local fast food joint.  It was me, my son, my son's cousin, and my youngest duaghter (who was a cheer leader for the game).

It was a great seen.  As we slid into the booth, the delicous smell of grease hung thick in the air.  We were all excited about the game and talked about the final score...the kids were hungry and ate like wolves.  I don't want to say it was hard for me to sit their and sip on water, while they ate chicken fingers and french fries...it was more weird.  I love eating late at night, after a major event, when I'm happy.

This morning as I look back at last night...I'm very proud of the fact that I didn't indulge in a 1500 calorie meal I didn't need and is not part of my plan.  I feel a lot batter than I would have had I eaten all that greasy chicken and fries....but more important, I feel stronger on the inside for having controlled myself and excerised discipline.

But before I go breaking my arm, patting myself on the back for my new found strength, I must remember that I am a food addict.  I'm not unlike a drug junkie.  That was one situation I got through last night...there will be more.  I can never let down my guard *EVER*,  I can never forget what I really am.  I must take it one day at a time. 

I beat my demons last night, but the addiction is always waiting there...waiting to reclaim my life from me.  It's my cross to bear.  I'm through asking why, I just accept the fact that I have a food addiction that will overtake everything else in my life if I don't keep it under control.

The wonderful thing is I do have control...I get to decide.

I hope you are having a wonderful day and that you're overcoming your challenges.

God Bless!