Bill Phillip's | Transformation

Day#48 I SURRENDERED>>>>THE present would be to BE PRESENT

Today was a weird day for me I stopped and realized the weather is going to keep ME from my DAD this Christmas EVE and there isn't a darn thing I can do about it..... SO I SURRENDERED to it! Stop fighting the clock,rushing, trying to get it all done and JUST DELAY !!

You know we all have a perfect plan in are head for what CHRISTMAS should be and that is usually the thing that ruins the whole thing. BEING PRESENT is the Present in this season.

I had a calm come over me which I have been praying for when my hubby said all he wanted from me for the holiday is to BE HERE so to speak.  I called my dad and said we are coming I just don't know when exactly but we will have our Christmas and he will see his grandaughter.

HE is very sick and at home living his life but EACH DAY is a PRESENT for ME that he is still alive.  I would delay any amount of time we have to, so it is safe to travel but we will GET THERE!!

I then was able to  breath for the first time since he left us at THANKSGIVING I THINK!!

Christmas isn't about one day it is about the whole season and what JESUS means to all of us for walking here on EARTH and sharing his life,teachings and his love with US.

Mary's Christmas EVE wasn't perfect EITHER but look what her baby's life turned into and that is what I have to keep my eyes on this SEASON.

people need us and we need eachother and if we can look for the opportunities to share,give and love others it will fill our CHRISTMAS SPIRIT as full as it can BE!!

I heard something today GIVE THIS CHRISTMAS AWAY......(chris tomlin) give your heart, time, energy,money away.

Have a SILENT NIGHT this HOLIDAY turn off the phone,games,computer and TV and enjoy one another.

THAT WOULD BE A CHRISTMAS without seeing how fast it can be over with and fast we can buy and give gifts, unwrap them and for what......HEARTACHE for many!!

I want to do just that give my heart to my family, my DAD, my baby girl my husband my friends and neighbors and a few strangers TOO! I FEEL LIKE A HUGE WEIGHT HAS BEEN LIFTED FROM MY SHOULDERS...........THANK YOU GOD for your grace and your SON!!

 Eats

M1 PB and dab of J on oroweat 100 cal bread

M2 pear and almonds

M3 rice, ground turkey, cottage cheese, and salsa with dab sour

M4 two small Christmas cookies

M5 wheat pasta with yellow pepper lots of brocolli and gr turkey with sm amount of pasta sauce and pinch of cheese

workout setup a curcuit and it kicked my BUNS!!
upper

bi cable's 12x35,10x40,8x45,6x50,12x45/ bar curls 30x12

tri cables 12x30,10x35,8x40,9x45,12x40 / pushdowns 12x90

rows 12x30,10x40,8x50,6x60,12x50 / seated press 10x12

lat pull downs 12x40,10x50,8x60,6x70,12x60 / straight arm cable pushdowns 12x30

bench dumbell press 12x7 1/2,10x10,8x12 1/2,6x15,12x12 1/2 /  bar 12x20

it was a good workout

There is something else weighing on my heart today late last week we had a five year member at our business loos his wife he comes in the gym often and my husband knows him much better then I. SHE TOOK HER LIFE and my heart is so sad for her family the details are long and there was a history of drug abuse and problems with the law she had been finishing a sentence in another state for her wrong doings and was in a halfway house. He had just said a few days before here dealth how the kids made home made cards and put things together to send to her and how he was so excited that next year would be different with this past behind them.  My husband saw him tonight at our gym he owns a store next door to us and he talked to him awhile he thought maybe he just needed some place other then home to go tonight!! IT is days like this that others hearts need us more then any present!!PLEASE PRAY FOR OUR FRIEND JASON and his three children.