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Saturday - Independence Day
I think I am truly rebelling.... I have made my mind up that this weekend is a free for all - the last shabang before Monday comes - all out - the last hoo hah before I have to be accountable for myself. Because it IS a HOLIDAY WEEKEND!?!?!!? I don't even remember what week I am on for this challenge. I believe it's somewhere between 3-4? I made terrible choices on Friday and today. And more than likely tomorrow. Like I said... I'm in Holiday mode...
Why do I do this to myself? I have the best of intentions. I know that I have to stay accountable and that I can not fall back into that mode that I always find myself in. I can visualize where I need to be, but continue to fall back into the old patterns.
Today, I woke up and decided I was going to push myself really hard and burn some calories on my power walk.. and I did. But DH was out there smoking some delicious spare ribs so I had to have them for dinner along with a Baja Bob's sugar free margarita. Same old patterns... Weekends seem to be a free for all. I just can't seem to get past that hurdle.. the will to say no on the weekends. I am almost 100% during the week on my meals and exercise. I obviously need to reflect on what triggers my behaviour and learn how to overcome the urges to fall back especially on the weekends.
One thing that helped me in the past is that I had set a goal for myself when I did a BFL challenge. "By this date you will be down one size".. Maybe that is the key.... if I could just visualize what I want to look like by.. let's say... August 15th.. I might just achieve this. I am not going to Denver because I can't afford it, and I can't really run no matter how hard I try. And about that time hopefully my DH will be going thru his reversal surgery. So much of this had derailed me this year. I am praying that the rest of the year will be a time of reflection and a fire under my butt. I know where I want to be, but just can't seem to stay on task/focus to reach this goal.
Sorry for rambling on......... I am having one of those nights where I have been reflecting on so much.
I think I am truly rebelling.... I have made my mind up that this weekend is a free for all - the last shabang before Monday comes - all out - the last hoo hah before I have to be accountable for myself. Because it IS a HOLIDAY WEEKEND!?!?!!? I don't even remember what week I am on for this challenge. I believe it's somewhere between 3-4? I made terrible choices on Friday and today. And more than likely tomorrow. Like I said... I'm in Holiday mode...
Why do I do this to myself? I have the best of intentions. I know that I have to stay accountable and that I can not fall back into that mode that I always find myself in. I can visualize where I need to be, but continue to fall back into the old patterns.
Today, I woke up and decided I was going to push myself really hard and burn some calories on my power walk.. and I did. But DH was out there smoking some delicious spare ribs so I had to have them for dinner along with a Baja Bob's sugar free margarita. Same old patterns... Weekends seem to be a free for all. I just can't seem to get past that hurdle.. the will to say no on the weekends. I am almost 100% during the week on my meals and exercise. I obviously need to reflect on what triggers my behaviour and learn how to overcome the urges to fall back especially on the weekends.
One thing that helped me in the past is that I had set a goal for myself when I did a BFL challenge. "By this date you will be down one size".. Maybe that is the key.... if I could just visualize what I want to look like by.. let's say... August 15th.. I might just achieve this. I am not going to Denver because I can't afford it, and I can't really run no matter how hard I try. And about that time hopefully my DH will be going thru his reversal surgery. So much of this had derailed me this year. I am praying that the rest of the year will be a time of reflection and a fire under my butt. I know where I want to be, but just can't seem to stay on task/focus to reach this goal.
Sorry for rambling on......... I am having one of those nights where I have been reflecting on so much.
ediegram
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I understand, i'm not going to Denver anymore either, but I am still pushing myself to be able to run 13 miles by Sept 1st. Hopefully I will at least be able to do it. Either way, my blood pressure is going down & that is a good thing.
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