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Strength

My mind, body and spirit are strongI take time each day to rejuvenate and rechargeI draw from a deep well of peace and calmI breathe in strength and release my fearsI go after my heart's deep desiresI can accomplish anythingAll of my dreams are coming trueI focus on my goal and have the strength to make it happenI choose to be unstoppableI am strongI act in spite of my fearsI am bigger than my concerns and worriesI go for it with gusto!I can do a...

November 21, 2008 | comments (1) | Uncategorized

Potty Training

Wow...never knew potty training could be so difficult! My (almost) 3 year old son is really putting us throught he ringer on this one. Oh well...it's only day 2 so I know I shouldn't expect any huge results yet.Funny...how much life's little challenges all have a common thread. Sayings like, "Rome wasn't built in a day..." really hit home. Just like potty-training my son, changing myself takes time. I didn't get ...

November 19, 2008 | comments (5) | Uncategorized

Inner -vs- Outer Change: The struggle

I have been away from you all for so long and I am sorry for that.I have been struggling between the Inner -vs- Outer change. I consistently would begin to work on the outer change and ignoring the inner change. So, when something goes not as planned, my insides sabotage my outer success. I will be focusing completely on my inner change. I will be focusing on positive thinking, selfless/random acts of kindness and meditatio...

November 17, 2008 | comments (3) | Uncategorized

Paging Dr. Feel good....Dr. REALLY Feel good...

Paging Dr. Feel Good....Dr. REALLY Feel GoodI don't remember feeling this good in a long time. Feeling confident today...feeling positive today. It's like Dr. Feel Good came by and gave me a shot in the butt. Now...I'm not one for needles. Just thinking about them makes me cringe and tense up. But, shots are necessary to make us well again. When I was pregnant with my son 3 years ago, I was Gestationally Diabetic.&nb...

October 20, 2008 | comments (6) | Uncategorized

I like to move it - move it!

Woke up this morning fighting my demons again. Stay in bed or get up and brave the cold and workout. Well - working out won. I got dressed, donned my MP3 player and headed out the door. As I began to walk I tried to turn on my couch to 5K podcast but it wasn't working. Did I quit? HELL NO. I kept going and just played any songs I could find.I am trying to jog a mile. Just one mile. This i...

October 20, 2008 | comments (1) | Uncategorized

Happiness is....a clean bathroom sink

This morning I woke up and looked around my house. Dirt and disorginization everywhere. I had the same thoughts I did a month or 2 ago, this is not helping my Transformation.In order for me to be at my best, I can accept no less than the best out of my environment. By allowing my home / relationships to be dirty / disorganized, I hurt my progress forward. For example, I don't even like to go into our basement anymore to wa...

October 15, 2008 | comments (5) | Uncategorized

Life's Challenges

Today begins my journey back and I'm finding that life's challenges are already causing me to have to make temporary adjustments. Challenge #1: Cellphone message didn't recordLast night DH told me to leave him a message with anything I needed from the store for today. Something happened and the message never recorded on the cellphone so he assumed I needed nothing. WRONG...I needed a bunch of things. ADJUSTMENT: ...

October 13, 2008 | comments (3) | Uncategorized

Pick yourself up...dust yourself off....and start all over again

It's time for me to start over - what a beautiful thing...getting another chance to live.I've learned a few things. I've learned that positive thoughts breed positive action and, conversely, negative thoughts breed negative actions. I've learned that when you give you get so much more in return. Probably the most important lesson I've learned is that I do not have to do this alone. I've learned that the people who come to t...

October 10, 2008 | comments (6) | Uncategorized

Hydrating - it's the key

I have noticed I am starting to feel much better and the world looks much clearer today. I cannot stress how important saying fully hydrated is!According to the Mayo-Clinic website dehydration can cause: Extreme fussiness or sleepiness in infants and children; irritability and confusion in adults I strongly believe that dehydration is linked strongly with depression. The more dehydrated you are, the easier you slip into depressi...

October 8, 2008 | comments (6) | Lessons Learned

My Birthday Wish....

Over the past few days I've felt the new depth of a new rock bottom. Funny thing about rock bottom...it can always go deeper if you work hard enough at it. I dug myself into a deep hole...thinking I'd hit the bottom and finding that the hole would go as deep as I wanted it to. The deeper I wanted it - the deeper it would go. Over the past few days I've received PM's and messages from COUNTLESS Angels. God sends Angel...

October 7, 2008 | comments (8) | Uncategorized

ANOTHER binge. Jesus...help me...

Out of control...completely out of control. Jesus...help me - I'm begging you...help me......

October 6, 2008 | comments (16) | Uncategorized

Starting again...another year older tomorrow.

This weekend was an emotionally stressful weekend. My husband and I got into a HUGE blowout on Saturday night. It was so bad, at one point I pulled off my wedding ring and threw it to the ground. Upon picking it up it was broken and deformed. My heart was broken and deformed. I was done with myself...done with my husband...done with my life. I went to bed and cried myself to sleep.Things looked better Sun...

October 6, 2008 | comments (4) | Uncategorized

My mantra...

First of all, GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU for your kind words and your encouraging support! I am overwhelmed by your outpouring of your help and your spirit and I am truly grateful to have you in my life.It is time to be who I was ment to be. It is time to become that person I know is inside. Many of you have suggested looking at life positively, using mantras, etc... I think this must be my first step back into the light. Hummdinger t...

October 3, 2008 | comments (1) | Mental Transformation

Let's find out why...

Thank you to everyone for your love and support! I'm still binging...today's binge? 2 egg mcMuffins, a hashbrown and an order of cinamelts. I'm hiding my food. I'm binging and hiding. I've been sneaking these breakfasts on my business credit card so that my husband won't see it. I'm listening to all those negative messages again...the ones we wrote in our assignment 1. It feels so hopeless today. I ...

October 3, 2008 | comments (6) | Mental Transformation

I'm so ashamed...please help...

I am so ashamed of myself.I've not worked out in 4 weeks. I can start to feel the pains I used to feel before I started working out. I'm hurting again.I've binge-eaten every day - eating crap that is hurting me. Do any of you know this feeling? You walk into the kitchen at work...see the Dunkin' Donuts box. You listen hard and peek to see if anyone is around the corner...you open the box...full of donuts. You t...

September 26, 2008 | comments (12) | Mental Transformation

Back in the saddle again...

Hey everyone - I've been gone for a while - I fell off the wagon on purpose. I needed a break and so did my body. But, I'm happy to report that in this break I didn't gain back one pound.So - today I ran week 4 of the couch to 5K program for the first time. I ran (2) intervals of the following: Run 3 minutes - Walk 90 sec - Run 5 minutes - Walk 2 1/2 minutes. I was so scared...honestly scared that I'd suck wind...sca...

September 5, 2008 | comments (7) | Mental Transformation

Positive Quote for today

POSITIVE QUOTE OF THE DAY-----------------------------Too many people overvalue what they are not and undervalue what theyare.-- Malcolm Forbes (1919-1990) American Publisher...

August 26, 2008 | comments (2) | Spiritual Transformation

Transformation Day 44

Wake time: 6:00√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg, ff cheddar & tortilla√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk √ Couch to 5K - week 3: TomorrowGOALS√ Goal to run - ACHIEVED√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVED√ Goal: Go to Great America (amusement park) with my son and ride EVERY ride - ACHIEVEDGoal weight: 230 (255/265)Goal:&nbs...

August 26, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Positive quote for today...

"Service to others is the rent you pay for your room here on earth." —Time magazine (1978)Muhammad Ali...

August 25, 2008 | comments (1) | Spiritual Transformation

Thanks for the help today God!

Woke up this morning - 5am on the alarm clock. Turned to my hubby and asked him where my workout clothes were? He said they were in the washer....GREAT....so I resigned to BLOWING OFF my workout this morning. I walked down stairs and started a pot of coffee and turned on a movie, "The Nativity Story". As I got my cup of coffee in my depressed state, I glanced at the kitchen clock...it said 4:15 am. WHAT?&nb...

August 25, 2008 | comments (6) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 43

Wake time: 4:00√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg, ff cheddar & tortilla√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk √ Couch to 5K - week 3: DONEGOALS√ Goal to run - ACHIEVED√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVED√ Goal: Go to Great America (amusement park) with my son and ride EVERY ride - ACHIEVEDGoal weight: 230 (255/265)Goal: R...

August 25, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

GOAL #3 - COMPLETE!!!!

Well - no pictures to commemorate the moment, but I achieved my 3rd goal today! Wish I could have taken a shot, but hard to do when you are riding :) Maybe DH got a shot off sitting w/ our 2 yr old..I'll have to see... Goal: To go to the amusement park and ride the roller coaster w/ my son. DONE!!!! You know...I sat in the seat and prayed. This ride had an "excessive size" restriction. I d...

August 23, 2008 | comments (2) | Mental Transformation

Positive Quote for today

POSITIVE QUOTE OF THE DAY-----------------------------When we accept tough jobs as a challenge to our ability and wade intothem with joy and enthusiasm, miracles can happen.-- Arland Gilbert...

August 22, 2008 | comments (2) | Spiritual Transformation

Wow....I had forgotten...

I finally decided to get my wedding dress picture up online for you all to see. WOW - this was almost 11 years ago! I had almost forgotten how SKINNY I was! Although, at the time I thought I was a fat pig. Now I CAN'T WAIT to be that size again! It's funny how life works. Little did I know that only 1 year after that picture was taken I would be pregnant and over 300 pounds. Sobering to look at actually.M...

August 22, 2008 | comments (2) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 40

Wake time: 5:00√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg, ff cheddar & tortilla√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (255/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my wedding dress I wore over 11 years ago before gaining the weightGoal:&...

August 22, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Transformation Day 39

Wake time: 6:00√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg, ff cheddar & tortilla√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (256/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my wedding dress I wore over 11 years ago before gaining the weightGoal:&...

August 21, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Positive Quote for the Day

POSITIVE QUOTE OF THE DAY-----------------------------If you have made mistakes...there is always another chance foryou...you may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for thisthing we call "failure" is not the falling down, but the stayingdown.-- Mary Pickford (1893-1979) Canadian Actress...

August 20, 2008 | comments (0) | Spiritual Transformation

Nothing great is ever achieved without enthusiasm...

Nothing great is ever achieved without enthusiasm....Oh my gosh...how many times did my voice teacher go over and over this vocal exercise phrase with me when I was younger??? You would have thought that it would have embedded in my brain! But...I forgot it until now.Last night I took my kids to the park after dinner and ran around with them. Funny little story here... My 10 yr old thinks he's hot stuff. So, when Mom...

August 20, 2008 | comments (0) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 38

Wake time: 5:00√ Couch to 5K - week 3 : DONE√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg, ff cheddar & tortilla√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (257/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my wedding dress I wore over 11 years ...

August 20, 2008 | comments (0) | Mental Transformation

Positive thought for today - PROGRESSION

POSITIVE QUOTE OF THE DAY-----------------------------The person who removes a mountain begins by carrying away smallstones.-- Chinese proverb...

August 19, 2008 | comments (3) | Spiritual Transformation

Being the change...

First of all...THANK YOU AND BLESS ALL OF YOU who have took some time to pray for my husband's Nana (grandma). She had a massive stroke on Friday and her whole left side is paralyzed. Well...more bad news...she failed the swallowing test, so Nana will never get to eat again. She will be given a feeding tube and, because we are only 4 days past the stroke, we need to wait another 3 days before we can determine what quality of lif...

August 19, 2008 | comments (4) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 37

Wake time: 6:15√ UBWO tonight with hubby- no 5K training till' tomorrow√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg, ff cheddar & tortilla√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (258/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my wedding ...

August 19, 2008 | comments (2) | Physical Transformation

Transformation Day 36

Wake time: 5:00√ UBWO tonight with hubby√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg, ff cheddar & tortilla√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (259/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my wedding dress I wore over 11 years ago ...

August 18, 2008 | comments (1) | Mental Transformation

Life's challenges...

Friday night my husband's Nana had a stroke. Her whole left side is paralyzed. Now this woman is 90 yrs old and has been in a nursing home for about 8 years. My husband went to see her Sunday. Present was his Uncle Tom, cousin Doug and his parents. The doctors came in the room to check Nana. They asked her if she recognized each person in the room. As her eyes set on each person she looked at them without...

August 18, 2008 | comments (3) | Spiritual Transformation

Why can't everyone we know Transform with us!?

I am having difficulty today with others around me who are not Transforming.I am changing inside, learning that money and things in this life are not important. Learning that giving to others and people are the most important things. People around me are still stuck in that other world. This is truly the challenge of the transformation for me. My family gives us club tickets to sporting events and takes us on vacations.&nb...

August 14, 2008 | comments (4) | Spiritual Transformation

Tonight is the night

Last night I led an hour long nature hike for my son's Cub Scout pack. I never realized how many steep hills there were on this hike! Feeling REALLY sore this morning...more in my left ankle than anything. Before I started the hike it was slightly bothering me but now it's really bothering me. Taking today off for cardio.Tonight I begin lifting weights with my husband. Should be interesting considering we are fightin...

August 14, 2008 | comments (0) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 33

Wake time: 6:00√ UBWO tonight with hubby√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg, ff cheddar & tortilla√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (259/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my wedding dress I wore over 11 years ago ...

August 14, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

MEN TOTALLY ROCK!

I just have to scream it out loudMEN ARE AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I am struggling. I am working on my mental side - trying to become more positive and more self-sufficient. I have found cardio to be a joy but weight training scares me. I needed someone to hold my hand. I blogged about this today. As I hit "Add Post" - my phone rang. It was my husband calling. Gosh...God AGAIN has given me exactl...

August 13, 2008 | comments (5) | Spiritual Transformation

Why can't I do this?

Why can't I get into weight lifting? Feeling a groove beginning. I wake up most ever morning, meditate for 15 min while the coffee is brewing and do my 5K training. Come home, shower, ready for work, cook my breakfast to go and pack my nutrition for the day and off to work I go. It's almost scary how simple it all is. I know I have to lift weights but I haven't consistently started yet. I know this is an im...

August 13, 2008 | comments (1) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 32

Wake time: 6:00√ Morning couch to 5K week 3: NOT done - taking an hour hike tonight w/ Scouts√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg, ff cheddar & tortilla√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (259/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal...

August 13, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Progression

Last night I got a call from my sister-in-law. She is pregnant - what AWESOME NEWS! My DH & I want more kids and one of my motivations for getting healthy is so I can go throught he IVF treatments again. AMAZING how God provides you with exactly what you need when you need it in order to keep moving forward. I am blessed today.I did my 2nd Couch to 5K - week 3 podcast this morning. Warmup walk: 5 min - 90 sec jog...

August 12, 2008 | comments (3) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 31

Wake time: 6:30√ Morning couch to 5K week 3: DONE√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg, ff cheddar & tortilla√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (259/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my wedding dress I wore ove...

August 12, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Transformation Day 27 - MEASUREMENT DAY!

Forgot to post my measurements Friday. Here is my 4 week summary: Week #WeightBodyfat %NeckChestBicepsForearmsHipsWaistThighsCalvesChallenge #1: Just DECIDE....and BE the Change - Started Jul 9, 2008 Challenge Goals/Notes: Change your mind...change your life. 0265.4lb53.9%16.34in47.34in14.50inN/A55.50in43.50in28.00in16.00in1265.4lb55.3%16.25in48.00in14.00inN/A55.00in45.00in26.50in16.00inWeek 1 Notes: Week 1 down! Looks like we measure...

August 12, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

One step closer to the 5K

This morning I ran my first Podcast (Couch to 5K) for week 3. It was amazing...I was really doing it! I actually ran for 3 minutes...jogged really but who cares! I was moving for 3 minutes at a pace I hadn't seen in years without stopping! WOW! I'm JAZZED!!!! I will say that I know this week is going to be the test...I must do at least 3 more training sessions this week before I can move on to next week's...

August 11, 2008 | comments (3) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 30

Wake time: 6:30√ Morning couch to 5K week 3: DONE√ Breakfast (8:00) : Oatmeal√ No work today - running around w/ the kids GOALSGoal weight: 230 (258/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my wedding dress I wore over 11 years ago before gaining the weightGoal: Run a 5K for my broth...

August 11, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Transformation Day 27

Wake time: 6:30√ Morning couch to 5K week 2: not today :)√ Breakfast (8:00) : Oatmeal√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (258/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my wedding dress I wore over 11 years ago ...

August 8, 2008 | comments (3) | Physical Transformation

Win some and then you lose some...

Well, knowing I was going to the Bears pre-season opener last night, I took the bike out for a spin yesterday. My knees were wobbly by the time I got home! So, got changed and took my 10 yr old to the game.It was a long drive (3 hours in traffic) to the game. My son & I talked alot...we talked about things we hadn't before and I began to see just how grown up he is. We finally got to the stadium. Upon entering, w...

August 8, 2008 | comments (1) | Mental Transformation

Bear Down Chicago Bears....

I am so jazzed! My company has season tickets to the Bears games in the club level and they invited me and my son to go! Ok...so my company is owned by my brother & sister but hey...family has it's perks :) So, I plan on eating CLEAN for most of the day, performing a cardio at lunch and heading to the Bears game to enjoy a free day dinner. GO BEARS!I've begun to explore more into the world of changing my insides....

August 7, 2008 | comments (1) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 26

Wake time: 5:00√ Morning couch to 5K week 2: will do after lunch√ Breakfast (8:00) : Oatmeal√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (258/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my wedding dress I wore over 11 yea...

August 7, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Make me a channel of your peace...

Make me a channel of your peace. Where there is hatred let me bring your love. Where there is injury, your pardon, Lord And where there's doubt, true faith in you.Make me a channel of your peaceWhere there's despair in life, let me bringhope Where there is darkness, only light And where there's sadness, ever joy.Oh, Master grant that I may never seekSo much to be consoled as to console To be understood as to understand To be loved as to love with...

August 6, 2008 | comments (4) | Spiritual Transformation

Recharging the battery

Hi Everyone!Last week I was beginning to feel uninspired - falling into the old patterns of my life where I would skip a workout...then eat something i shouldn't...and then it just progresses from there. But, because I'm living my life on purpose, I decided to do something I wouldn't do before. I asked for HELP. Coach Stoney gave me some great advice. He said take the weekend off...fill yourself with positives, RECHARGE TH...

August 6, 2008 | comments (2) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 25

Wake time: 5:00√ Morning couch to 5K week 2: DONE√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg Beaters, tortilla & ff cheese√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (258/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my wedding dress I w...

August 6, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Transformation Day 24

Wake time: 5:00√ Morning couch to 5K week 2: skipped - ankle pain√ Breakfast (8:00) : Oatmeal√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (258/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my wedding dress I wore over 11 ye...

August 5, 2008 | comments (2) | Physical Transformation

Transformation Day 23

August 4, 2008 | comments (1) | Physical Transformation

Transformation Day 20 - MEASURING DAY!

Skewed results - girls...you all know why... current starting change Neck 16" 16 3/4" -0.75 bicep 14" 14 1/2" -0.5 Bust 47 3/4" 47 3/4" waist 43 1/2" 43 1/2" hips 54 1/2" ...

August 2, 2008 | comments (2) | Physical Transformation

Positive quote for the day...

POSITIVE QUOTE OF THE DAY-----------------------------The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth andrichness to life that nothing else can bring.-- Oscar Wilde (1854-1900) Irish Dramatist and Poet...

August 1, 2008 | comments (1) | Spiritual Transformation

Breaking the patters that hold us back

For the past 2 days I've been feeling less than inspired with myself and my acomplishments. I tried on my wedding dress from when I got married 11 years ago and you could fit the Grand Canyon in the gaping space between each side of the zipper. My ankles are beginning to consistently hurt. I was feeling a little down...a little sorry for myself - ok...a WHOLE LOT sorry for myself.This was always my pattern. The usual next ...

August 1, 2008 | comments (2) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 20 - MEASURING DAY

Wake time: 5:00√ Morning couch to 5K week 2: SKIPPING UNTIL MONDAY√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg Beaters, tortilla & ff cheese√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (258/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my ...

August 1, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Foggy, HUMID morning to you all!

Well, woke up 15 min late this morning, went downstairs and hubby was still having a problem loading week 2 of the couch to 5K program on the IPOD. But, eventually he got this loaded and outside I went for my first 90 sec jog / 2 min walk HIIT session. Outside it was VERY humid...fog EVERYWHERE. There was something almost mystical about working out in these conditions. Yeah..I know...I AM NUTZ :)It went surprisingly well a...

July 31, 2008 | comments (3) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 19

Wake time: 5:00√ Morning couch to 5K week 2: DONE√ Breakfast (8:00) : Oatmeal√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (259/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my wedding dress I wore over 11 years ago before g...

July 31, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Positive quote for the day...

POSITIVE QUOTE OF THE DAY-----------------------------The sign of intelligent people is their ability to control emotionsby the application of reason.-- Marya Mannes (1904-1990) American Journalist ...

July 30, 2008 | comments (0) | Spiritual Transformation

Feeling uninspired...

This morning didn't start out the best. Woke up at 5 and realized my 10 yr old had been up since 4am itching - he has bug bites. So, we put some cortizone on them to stop the itching and went downstairs. I put the coffee on, put on my workout outfit and headed out the door for my new training session: couch to 5K podcast #2. I put the IPOD on and realized that it wasn't on there. My husband never loaded it.&nbs...

July 30, 2008 | comments (2) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 18

Wake time: 5:00√ Morning WALK: DONE√ Breakfast (7:00) : Oatmeal√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (260/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my wedding dress I wore over 11 years ago before gaining the wei...

July 30, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Positive quote for the day...

POSITIVE QUOTE OF THE DAY-----------------------------To do the useful thing, to say the courageous thing, to contemplatethe beautiful thing: that is enough for one man's life.-- T. S. Eliot (1888-1965) American Poet ...

July 29, 2008 | comments (2) | Spiritual Transformation

Feeling those MUSCLES coming to the surface!!!

This morning I did my final week 1 podcast for the couch to 5k program. I felt that I had my breathing 90% under control - in through the nose...out through the mouth...arms at my waist and loose. So, tomorrow I progress forward to the 2nd podcast where I run for 90 seconds and walk for 2 minutes. I'm excited about this! It means I'm really progressing forward to my goal! On a side note...I've upped my 5K training to...

July 29, 2008 | comments (0) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 17 - UBWO

Wake time: 5:00√ Morning WALK/RUN : DONE√ Breakfast (7:00) : Egg beaters, tortilla & fat free cheddar√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (260/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!√ Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr old - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into my wedding dress I wor...

July 29, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

I'm on a ROLL!!!! Goal #2 in the hole!

Took FULL advantage of my freeday on Saturday...felt REALLY off-track yesterday morning. I wasn't back on schedule...I wasn't getting in the 6 meals...just feeling off. Then I remembered that I promised my son we'd go for a bike-ride. Ok...this was the opportunity for me to get back on track. I went to my purse and grabbed some cash, hopped on our bikes and we were off. I biked 4 miles to / from the White Hen to get ...

July 28, 2008 | comments (4) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 16 - CARDIO & ABS

July 28, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Transformation Deadlines (Assignment #5) - UPDATE

18-WEEK GOALS 1. Getting down to 210#'s (Losing 55#'s - Start was 265)2. Run a 5K marathon for my brother George - OCTOBER 25th3. Wear a size 18 (Current 24)4. Fit in my wedding dress again5. Ride 4 miles on my bike with my son to get an ICEE from White Hen DONE 7/28/086. Fit into sexy little black dress for my Anniversary - November 8th7. Go to Great America (Amuement park) wi...

July 28, 2008 | comments (1) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 13 - MEASURING DAY!

Here are my Week 2 results! That's a total of 3 3/4" GONE FOREVER!!! current starting change Neck 15 3/4 16 3/4" 1" bicep 14 1/2 14 1/2" N/C Bust 47 1/2 47 3/4" 1/4" waist 43 43 1/2" ...

July 25, 2008 | comments (6) | Physical Transformation

Transformation Assignment #5 - DEADLINES

18-WEEK GOALS 1. Getting down to 210#'s (Losing 55#'s - Start was 265)2. Run a 5K marathon for my brother George - OCTOBER 25th3. Wear a size 18 (Current 24)4. Fit in my wedding dress again5. Ride 4 miles on my bike with my son to get an ICEE from White Hen6. Fit into sexy little black dress for my Anniversary - November 8th7. Go to Great America (Amuement park) with my son and ride every ...

July 25, 2008 | comments (2) | Uncategorized

The Garden of your life...

MATTHEW 13 24-3024 Another parable put he forth unto them, saying, The kingdom of heaven is likened unto a man which sowed good seed in his field: 25 But while men slept, his enemy came and sowed weeds among the wheat, and went his way. 26 But when the blade was sprung up, and brought forth fruit, then appeared the weeds also. 27 So the servants of the householder came and said unto him, Sir, didst not thou sow good seed...

July 25, 2008 | comments (1) | Spiritual Transformation

Positive quote for the day...

POSITIVE QUOTE OF THE DAY-----------------------------A smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.-- Charles Gordy...

July 25, 2008 | comments (0) | Spiritual Transformation

In this corner...we have the big CHEESE- CHEESE-IT's!

...and in the corner we have Julie...who floats like a butterfly...stings like a bee...*DING DING* Round 1*BAM**WHACK!*OH! It looks like Julie took a upper cut to the chin! She's down...2 - 4 - 6 - 8 - YOUR'RE OUT!!! *DING DING* ...and look like the big CHEESE - CHEESE-IT's won this fight.Ok...the good news in all of this? I also had a re-match against the Dumpy Drumstick ice cream and I won that fight! It's al...

July 25, 2008 | comments (1) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 13 - ABS & Cardio

Wake time: 5:30√ Morning Weight: WEIGHT & MEASUREMENT DAY!!! √ Morning WALK/RUN : DONE√ Breakfast (7:00) : Egg beaters, tortilla & fat free cheddar√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (260/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr oldGoal: ...

July 25, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Positive quote for the day

POSITIVE QUOTE OF THE DAY-----------------------------The greatest pleasure I know is to do a good action by stealth, andto have it found out by accident.-- Charles Lamb (1775-1834) British Essayist...

July 24, 2008 | comments (0) | Spiritual Transformation

Taking a long - hard look at your before picture

This morning I took an energized 1/2 hour walk outside. I filled my head with positive images and songs as I strutted down the sidewalk. I'm sure some of the drivers in the cars passing by were giving some strange stares when I would really begin to get into the music I was listening to. LOL - But hey - it's all about how you feel inside, right?I have decided to begin to take a long-hard look at my before picture - only taken 2 ...

July 24, 2008 | comments (3) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 12 - UBWO

Wake time: 5:30√ Morning Weight: NO WEIGHT UNTIL FRIDAY√ Morning walk - DONE√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg beaters, tortilla & fat free cheddar√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (260/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr oldGoal: Fit into my wedding ...

July 24, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Positive Quote for the day...

POSITIVE QUOTE OF THE DAY-----------------------------What ought one to say then as each hardship comes? I was practicingfor this, I was training for this. -- Epictetus (55-135 AD) Greek Philosopher...

July 23, 2008 | comments (1) | Spiritual Transformation

Julie GUMP - I was RUN-NING......

This morning George & I did our walk/run "couch to 5K" HIIT routine and I have to say that today I felt a little stronger. It could have been the smashbra (one that smashes you down so tight NOTHING is moving) or it could have been the fact I wasn't holding a coffee tumbler, but somehow today's HIIT seemed to go much smoother. Two things I'm noticing:1) I find myself clenching my fists when I run. I have to be very...

July 23, 2008 | comments (2) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 11 - ABS & Cardio

Wake time: 5:30√ Morning Weight: NO WEIGHT UNTIL FRIDAY√ Morning walk/run HIIT: DONE√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg beaters, tortilla & fat free cheddar√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (261/265)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr olsGoal: Fit into my ...

July 23, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Raw Emotions...

This morning I woke up and took a morning walk listening to Enya. I looked at the trees...the flowers...smelled the fresh air and began my day on a positive note. Legs are sore - last night I took my 10 yr old for a haircut and needed to pick up a few things at a store down the way. Instead of getting in the car and driving the 1/4 mile, we walked. Yet another opportunity for us to spend time together.While we were walking...

July 22, 2008 | comments (5) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 10 - LBWO

Wake time: 5:30√ Morning Weight: NO WEIGHT UNTIL FRIDAY√ Morning walk - DONE√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg beaters, tortilla & fat free cheddar√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (262)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!Goal: To ride up to the White Hen w/ my 10 yr olsGoal: Fit into my wedding dres...

July 22, 2008 | comments (2) | Physical Transformation

Positive quote for the day...

POSITIVE QUOTE OF THE DAY-----------------------------Mistakes are part of the dues one pays for a full life. -- Sophia Loren (1934- ) Italian Actress ...

July 21, 2008 | comments (2) | Spiritual Transformation

George & I RAN TODAY!

Morning guys and gals! Well - today I DID IT! I actually ran! This was one of my goals during this challenge and - 1 week in - I've achieved it! I'm so proud of me! Thanks to the couch to 5K folks for pointing the way to the podcast. For the first time since I was a teenage, I hit the ground running this morning performing my first ever walk/run HIIT cardio session. After the bikeride I took yesterday wit...

July 21, 2008 | comments (1) | Spiritual Transformation

Transformation Day 9 - ABS & Cardio

Wake time: 5:30√ Morning Weight: 262.00 (265.4) - Goal weight: 230√ ABS & Cardio: HIIT walk/run done - couch to 5K√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg beaters, tortilla & fat free cheddar√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk GOALSGoal weight: 230 (262)√ Goal to run - ACHIEVEDGoal: Fit into a size 20 - Current size 24 - but getting looser!Goal: To ride up to the White H...

July 21, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

...It's just like riding a bike...you NEVER forget!

Today, probably for the first time since I was a teenager, I got on a bike. I decided to push myself to do something different today so I invited my 10 yr old for a bike ride with mom. WOW...quads and hamstrings are wobbly!!! We rode about 2 miles and I only had to stop twice to take a break and walk my bike (I was hitting a 10 so I figured I'd turn this joyride into a HIIT session ;) ) I felt a connection with my son.&nbs...

July 20, 2008 | comments (3) | Physical Transformation

Transformation Day 6 - MEASURING DAY !!!

I think we took a few measurements in different spots - (waist, bust cause they didn't grow :)) But - some of the changes are UNDENYABLE!!!! current starting change Neck 16 1/4" 16 3/4" (-1/2") bicep 14" 14 1/2" (-1/2") Bust 48" 47 3/4" (+1/4&q...

July 18, 2008 | comments (7) | Physical Transformation

body for LIFE not BODY for life

I woke up this morning uninspired. I intended to get up and do my first couch to 5K walk/run but let the pain of sleeping wrong and the voice of my inner negativity get the best of me. I went downstairs, did the dishes, made some coffee and went down to the basement to the computer. After checking my Ebay auctions, I went back upstairs to our bedroom to take a shower and get ready for the day.I hopped into a shower that probably...

July 18, 2008 | comments (4) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 6 - ABS & Cardio

Wake time: 5:30√ Morning Weight: 263.60 (265.4)√ ABS & Cardio: Scheduled for this evening√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg beaters, tortilla & fat free cheddar√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my desk Workout planned for this evening. Nutrition schedule:7:00am - Egg beaters, tortilla & 1 slice of fat free cheddar cheese9:30am - Yougart12:00pm - Brown Rice, chicken breast...

July 18, 2008 | comments (1) | Physical Transformation

What I learned today...

I had the absolute BEST HIIT workout I have EVER had in my entire life last night after watching the Home Run Derby.I learned that anything is possible with God. I watched Josh Hamilton from the Texas Rangers last night in the Home Run Derby at Yankee Stadium. The man hit 28 home runs in the first round - AMAZING to watch! The entire staduim was chanting his name...and this is YANKEE STADIUM! This doesn't happen every day!...

July 17, 2008 | comments (2) | Intellectual Transformation

Transformation Day 5 - UBWO

√ Wake time: 5:15√ Morning Weight: 263.60 (265.4)√ UBWO: Scheduled for this evening√ Breakfast (8:00) : Egg beaters, tortilla & fat free cheddar√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my deskWorkout planned for this evening. Nutrition schedule:7:00am - Egg beaters, tortilla & 1 slice of fat free cheddar cheese9:30am - Yougart & almonds12:00pm - Brown Rice, chicken bre...

July 17, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Daily Spiritual Inspiration - Interview with GOD

This was very MOVING...please check it out! http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com/...

July 17, 2008 | comments (1) | Spiritual Transformation

Surrender to the process today

"Addiction is a humbling experience. Getting it under control is even more humbling. I got better for one reason: I surrendered. Instead of asking to be bailed out, instead of making deals with God by saying, "If you get me out of this mess, I'll stop doing what I'm doing," I asked for help. I wouldn't do that before."- Josh Hamilton -MLB rookie who quit baseball because of addiction and made an incredible comeback to baseball...

July 17, 2008 | comments (0) | Mental Transformation

What I learned today...

We are what we eat! thats a phrase thats gets around a bit at the moment isn't it? Well its true, your body is constantly renewing itself from the inside out, in two years all your soft tissue (muscles, organs, skin sloppy internal bits) are completely renewed. In a seven year cycle all your bones are completely renewed!! good isn't it!! none of us have bit on us that is more than 7 years old, you know what that means?? As cells recreate themselv...

July 16, 2008 | comments (2) | Intellectual Transformation

Daily Spiritual Inspiration

POSITIVE QUOTE OF THE DAY-----------------------------If you wish to travel far and fast, travel light. Take off all yourenvies, jealousies, unforgiveness, selfishness, and fears. -- Glenn Clark ...

July 16, 2008 | comments (0) | Spiritual Transformation

Life's little challenges...

Last night our 2 1/2 yr old woke up at 10:00 pm with a HORRIBLE case of the flu. He was throwing up...dry heaving...fevered...you name it, he had it...POOR THING! My husband stayed up ALL NIGHT with him last night, even while our little boy slept, my husband was there making sure he was ok.GOD - today I am grateful for my husband and how much he loves his children.Today offers me the opportunity to face life's little challenges. I woke up to f...

July 16, 2008 | comments (0) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 4 - Abs & Cardio

√ Wake time: 5:15√ Morning Weight: 264.0 (265.4)√ AB & Cardio Workout: Scheduled for this evening√ Breakfast (7:00) : Egg beaters, tortilla & fat free cheddar√ 50 oz water jug filled and currently at my deskWorkout planned for this evening. Nutrition schedule:7:00am - Egg beaters, tortilla & 1 slice of fat free cheddar cheese9:30am - Yougart & almonds12:00pm - Brown...

July 16, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Daily Spiritual Inspiration

IF you have faith as a grain of mustard seed, you will say to your mountain, "MOVE!" and it WILL move... and NOTHING will be impossible for YOU! &n...

July 15, 2008 | comments (1) | Spiritual Transformation

What you fight - you strengthen...

Eckert Tollie's book A NEW EARTH teaches me that : "What you fight, you strengthen" and "What you resist, will persist"I am learning that by surrendering to the present moment in time, I can stop feeding the negative thoughts and ego in my head. By fighting against my ego, I am making it stronger. The ego cannot live in the present moment because it requires the past and the future to exist. ...

July 15, 2008 | comments (1) | Intellectual Transformation

Transformation Assignment #4

My purpose for Transformation...I WANT TO LIVEI want to live to see my children go to college, get married and have children.I don't want to die at 59 like my father from a heart attackI don't want to die at 47 like my brother from MORBID OBESITYI want more children - remember the pain of HPT-...I WANT MY HUSBAND DAVE TO LIVEI want to set the example for Dave - 35 is TOO YOUNG to have high cholesterol, be fat and have chest pains!REMEMBER JULIE -...

July 15, 2008 | comments (1) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 3 - LBWO

√ Wake time: 5:15√ Morning Weight: 263.0 (265.4)√ LBWO workout time: 5:20√ Breakfast (7:00) : Egg beaters & Oatmeal√ Forgot my jug at home - so I have (2) 8oz cups currently at my desk full of waterLegs are feeling SORE this morning. After Kathy Smith - the Devilwoman kicked my butt LITERALY...I took the dog for a walk around the block to cool off. Not sure how to feel this morning. Not feeling ...

July 15, 2008 | comments (0) | Physical Transformation

Letting go of the anger

Tonight I took my 10 yr old to the batting cages. It was UNGODLY hot and I felt my temperature rise. You see, he's not particularly athletic...in fact, of the 120 balls he only hit 3. I felt my blood boiling with each miss. I got angry with him because he was screwing around...not taking it seriously...What was I thinking??? He's 10...he's not a pro-ball player! And...why did I want him to hit? So he coul...

July 14, 2008 | comments (3) | Mental Transformation

Transformation Day 2 - Abs and Cardio

√ Wake time: 5:00√ Morning Weight: 263.0 (265.4)√ Ab workout time : 5:15√ Cardio workout time: 5:40√ Breakfast (7:00) : Egg beaters, tortilla & fat free cheddar cheese√ 50 oz. water bottle at my deskToday I feel like I am over the moon! I walked all the way down to a street called Barlina today. How far is this you ask? It's at least 1 mile from my house! So...I walked 2 miles today! YEA ME!!!!...

July 14, 2008 | comments (4) | Physical Transformation

Prepare - Prepare - Prepare!

Today was Nutrition Preparation Day! I cooked all my lunches for the week, measured and bagged my protein powder and snacks, and went shopping to get other odds and ends for my Transformation.Had a REALLY good protein shake for dinner tonight! FROZEN BERRY MILK SHAKE 1 C. Skim Milk1 scoop vanilla protein powder2 T. vanilla1 splenda packet1 C. frozen mixed berriesice to thicken Not only did my husband try this and thought it tasted g...

July 13, 2008 | comments (2) | Physical Transformation

Transformation Day 1 - UBWO

√ Wake time: 5:30√ Morning Weight: 264.4 (265.4)√ UBWO time: 7:15√ Breakfast (8:30) : 3/4 C. Oatmeal w/ protein√ 50 oz. water bottle in the kitchen UBWO felt good this morning. I know I will feel this in the morning tomorrow. Thank GOD we take breaks between lifting and cardio! Feeling really good and strong this morning. DH is wonderful...he told me whatever I need to do this - he's with me 150%. LO...

July 13, 2008 | comments (2) | Physical Transformation

BEGINNING STATS: Gentlemen...start your engines!

Week: 0Weight: 265.4Height: 5'10"Neck: 16 3/4"Bicep: 14 1/2"Chest: 47 3/4"Waist: 43 1/2"Hips: 55 1/2"Thigh: 28"Calf: 16"BODYFAT %: 53.9 % Who in the hell is this person? I am sitting here in complete disbelief...is this really me? We really have a lot of work to do...so let's get this party started! GENTLEMEN -- START YOUR ENGINES!!! ...

July 12, 2008 | comments (4) | Physical Transformation

Fail to Plan and you Plan to Fail...

Ok...I think I've got this down now. Today I am making my official plan for the next 18 weeks. I am creating my log sheets for measurements, nutrition and workouts. I will be planning my entire 18 weeks of meals today - with the exception of Free Days where I will only plan Breakfast and snacks. I can't afford the gym membership so I am using my DH's old free-weights. They only go up to 30#'s so once I progress further we'll have to see abou...

July 12, 2008 | comments (2) | Pre-Transformation

(Day 3) - Rain Rain Go Away!

√ Wake time: 5:30√ Morning Weight: 265 (267)√ CARDIO: 20 minutes HIIT + walked the dog √ Breakfast (7:15) : 3/4 C. Oatmeal + Eggbeaters√ 50 oz. water bottle filled and at my deskWell last night we had a DOOZY of a storm system roll through our area in Illinois. Needless to say - I didn't sleep very well. So, when the 5:30 alarm went off - I tried to use every excuse in the book to stay in bed. It's raining...

July 11, 2008 | comments (1) | Pre-Transformation

(Day 2) - BE PREPARED and Kathy Smith is the DEVIL

√ LBWO last night√ Wake time: 5:15 √ Morning Weight: 264.7 (267)√ CARDIO: 30 min walking √ Breakfast (6:30) : 3/4 C. Oatmeal w/ Protein Powder - Coffee√ 50 oz. water bottle filled and at my deskWell - day 2 today and in the spirit of the Boy Scouts - I've chosen to BE PREPARED!I struggled yesterday as I was STARVING at 2:00 pm. I was only eating (5) meals and I wasn't eating enough. So, today is a ne...

July 10, 2008 | comments (3) | Pre-Transformation

(Day 1) You go girl !!

√ Wake time: 5:30 √ Morning Weight: 267√ CARDIO: 30 min walking √ Breakfast (7:30) : (2) eggs (beaters) - (1) Tortilla - CoffeeI'm on my way today - off and WALKING! Waking up at 5:30 was more difficult than I thought. I heard the alarm and for about 2 seconds, my mind said, "you don't have to get up - you can sleep till' 6:00". I immediately began to focus on the present moment - silencing that negativ...

July 9, 2008 | comments (5) | Pre-Transformation

In the journey of life, it’s okay for me to stop and ask for directions.

Thanks to everyone who responded to my previous post/blog. I see why Bill calls this a family - we are all here for eachother to support one another. It's beautiful and very moving.So, here I am - sitting behind my desk at work and being in the present moment - not letting the pain of the past confuse me or define me...not letting the work of the future overwhelm me...just being in the now. It feels peaceful...probably more peaceful than I hav...

July 8, 2008 | comments (2) | Mental Transformation

Falling down

Feeling awful...feeling like that girl again on my before picture and all those words from our first transformation assignment. Haven't been exercising...haven't been eating right...Why do I do this every time??? How come we are so hard on ourselves? When we screw up and make bad choices...how come all of those old negative patterns come flooding back? Why can't I stop messing up? I'm better than this...I know I'm better than this...Why does one ...

July 8, 2008 | comments (1) | Mental Transformation

Surrender Julie

The book "A New Earth" is truly helping me to begin to understand exactly what I am doing to hold myself back from being where I want to be. Eckhart said : WHAT YOU FIGHT...YOU STRENGHTEN and WHAT YOU RESIST WILL PERSIST This hit me very profoundly. Was he trying to tell me that this whole time I've been strengthening my resistance to change? You betcha. The more we fight against something - the stronger it must become to exis...

July 1, 2008 | comments (4) | Spiritual Transformation

Just DECIDE

Another day closer to my DH\'s Echo Stress Test. I am really anxious that they are going to find something wrong. This is not my first run-in with heart problems...My father died of a heart attack when I was only 19. That really messes you up - losing a parent when you are still a teenager. Then, I lost my brother to a heart attack (he was only 47). My mother had heart trouble and ultimately died of cancer - another fun way to watch someone ...

June 30, 2008 | comments (2) | Mental Transformation

Assignment #1

My digital camera is at home at the moment so I am using a picture from earlier this year: She purposely avoids making friends. She doesn't feel desirable - completely unsexy. She's depressed, repressed. Sometimes she wishes she could be someone else, somewhere else, but she doesn't do anything to move towards her goals.When I look at my before picture I see... :She's smiling but really wishing she could hideUnhealthyUnsexyFatUnhappySufferin...

June 26, 2008 | comments (5) | Mental Transformation

The colors of your life....what will you choose?

Our lives are like a painter's blank canvas...we can paint it however we desire...I finally believe that I understand what Bill has been telling me - it's not just physical transformation...it's a transformation of mind, body and soul. This is where the true key lies - in understanding that to change one, you must in turn change the others. If you concentrate your full attention on just one of these areas, the others begin to suffer as a result...

June 26, 2008 | comments (3) | Mental Transformation

Getting honest....REALLY honest...

I finally had it. My DH has avoided going to the doctor for YEARS. I felt it was time for him to get a general checkup so I made him an appointment for last Friday. I sat down and wrote out bulletpoints, a vitrual laundry list of things I wanted him to talk to the doctor about. He came home from the doctors office and told me that he needs to go in for a stress test. What? He is only 35 years old! He went on to explain...his blood pressure...

June 25, 2008 | comments (1) | Mental Transformation

From a caterpillar to a beautiful butterfly...

From a caterpillar to a beautiful butterfly!Why a caterpillar? A caterpillar eats and eats. It is so hungry it eats all the time until it grows too big for it's old skin. It breaks through it's old skin as it becomes a little larger and eats even more. Until finally, the caterpillar cannot eat anymore and it forms a chrysalis around itself in preperation for a metamorphisis. Inside the chrysalis the caterpillar undergoes profound changes. Now...

June 24, 2008 | comments (3) | Spiritual Transformation

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