Bill Phillip's | Transformation

Packet

I never took an after picture...something I regret now.  I intend to use my 2nd round "before" as my first round "after".

I have been going back and forth about finishing/sending in my packet.  Some old force in me was trying to drag me down...telling me that I had zero changes...that I wasn't good enough...I wouldn't win anyways so why bother?

These excuses are old...old and tired.  I promised myself that I would finish the 18 weeks ...for good...for bad...if I lost weight...if I didn't...and I would turn in my packet NO MATTER WHAT.  For me to back down from this promise would be me living in the old pattern of lying to myself.  It would mean that my word means NOTHING...nothing to anyone else and nothing to myself. 

I am going to be working on my packet over the next week and I WILL be sending it in.  Denver isn't in our budget this year - with a $2700 car repair bill and $800.00 worth of plane tickets to fly down to Georgia to witness the baptism of our new niece.  Denver is something I would have loved to experience.  We also have another expense coming up at the end of this year.  $2500 to go through our infertility treatments.  I'm 38 (I'll be 39 in October) and this is our last shot to have the 4 frozen "totcicles" we have been storing for 4 years. 

On 6/23 I'll find out about my ankle...see if the doctor will give me the go-ahead to begin working out again.  I intend to begin my next challenge sometime that week (before the deadline of the 29th).  I'm getting my eating back on track after taking a pity-break.  Getting my head screwed back on straight and working towards doing this for me.