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Falling down...
Feeling awful...feeling like that girl again on my before picture and all those words from our first transformation assignment. Haven't been exercising...haven't been eating right...
Why do I do this every time??? How come we are so hard on ourselves? When we screw up and make bad choices...how come all of those old negative patterns come flooding back? Why can't I stop messing up? I'm better than this...I know I'm better than this...Why does one bad choice screw up the whole plan?
Got to get back on track...got to move past this - but I'm having difficulty. I'm not looking for pity - I really need some advice from someone who's been there...who's fallen off the wagon and struggled to keep moving forward.
I am fortunate that most things in life have come easy for me. School, work, etc... I have a feeling this change isn't going to be easy for me - that my mind/ego is going to fight me tooth & nail all the way. My signature says Just DECIDE...and BE the Change - I know this is what I must do. I have a long way to cross the Abyss...I may be crossing it for many years to come.
Help & thanks
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