Deb,
I agree--it's takes a lot of courage to start a thread like this and admit your problem. Actually, admitting it is, of course, the first step in overcoming it! In addition to the other suggestions, I would suggest that you start reading Mike Harris's blogs. You can either read them here or go to
MIKEHARRIS.org ? Home. Mike is a recovering alcoholic, an evangelist, a former politician, 2006 men's Body-for-LIFE champion, and truly one of the most intelligent, articulate people I know. Be warned--he tells it like it is, with no sugar-coating whatsoever, but his wisdom has helped thousands of people, and it can help you too. Best of luck to you!