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01-07-2011, 11:24 AM

I AM: KathyTNT I am Kathy and I have been a long time member of the transformation community. I want to release all the love that fear has a tendency to keep me from showing and sharing. Those of you that know my might be surprised by that comment. I love animals - especially, dogs and horses. I love to travel and I adore my husband David. He is the biggest blessing in my life.
I started losing weight 13 years ago. On February 6, 1998 I had gastric bypass surgery. I lost 130 lbs pretty quickly. Then I proceeded to regain about 50 lbs. Body for Life was published and I finally was able to regain some control. I still need to release about 30-40 more lbs. I think my plateau is more mental than physical.
I look forward to getting to know everyone in this group

MY WORK: I am currently a weight loss counselor and a certified personal trainer. I love helping others reach their goals. I may be changing careers soon only to find more steady work hours. Helping others will always be my avocation if not my vocation. It is my passion!

MY REASON: I deserve to be healthy and happy and comfortable in my own skin. I want to feel great and nurture my true self that has been hiding/suppressed all these years. Although there a lots of wonderful groups within Transformation I felt this one was special. When I met Eric in person he just exudes this wonderful amazing energy. Debby and I had our first nice chat in Dallas last year and have talked several times since then. Where Eric is a bundle of energy I see Debby as a beautiful sea of serenity. I want equal parts of both!

One of the observations I have made lately is that I still have a poor self-image. I need to love myself where I am at. I can't compare myself to the average person losing weight. The Before and even the After pictures don't just upset me, they practically traumatize me.
I occasionally make derogatory remarks about myself and it really upsets my husband. We all have bad days but I need to start learning to love myself. Who would think that would be so hard but it is because until I met Dave I have never really felt loved.

WHY I AM HERE: I am ready to make the changes I need to make. Usually with previous challenges I had situations come up during the middle of the challenge that blindsided me. This time I already know I am going to be extremely busy so I will have to really work on planning. I currently have 2 part time jobs. I am applying for another one right now that if I am hired will require 7 weeks of training. It is conceivable that for a while I might be working 3 jobs plus we will be buying our first house in the next month or so. I am tired just typing this LOL!
I am looking forward to this challenge although not the pictures. I have pretty much accepted that I will never be a t.com champion so I will probably take pictures in clothing that will show off my progress (for accountability sake) rather than shorts and sports bra or tank so that I will not be so traumatized. I have the weekend to decide. I have so much loose skin and scars and such due to losing weight too fast in the past - that is why the traumatization and dealing with the fact that I will never be able to look anything like that Champions we see in the book but I can still be the Champion in my own life. I am going to visualize how fabulously mentally, physcially and spritually healthy I can be for my 50th birthday in September!

I have either been ill or recovering from surgery since I got back from Denver in October. I am looking forward to feeling healthy and energetic again!

01-07-2011, 11:24 AM	#33 (permalink)
kathytnt Posts: n/a	I AM: KathyTNT I am Kathy and I have been a long time member of the transformation community. I want to release all the love that fear has a tendency to keep me from showing and sharing. Those of you that know my might be surprised by that comment. I love animals - especially, dogs and horses. I love to travel and I adore my husband David. He is the biggest blessing in my life. I started losing weight 13 years ago. On February 6, 1998 I had gastric bypass surgery. I lost 130 lbs pretty quickly. Then I proceeded to regain about 50 lbs. Body for Life was published and I finally was able to regain some control. I still need to release about 30-40 more lbs. I think my plateau is more mental than physical. I look forward to getting to know everyone in this group MY WORK: I am currently a weight loss counselor and a certified personal trainer. I love helping others reach their goals. I may be changing careers soon only to find more steady work hours. Helping others will always be my avocation if not my vocation. It is my passion! MY REASON: I deserve to be healthy and happy and comfortable in my own skin. I want to feel great and nurture my true self that has been hiding/suppressed all these years. Although there a lots of wonderful groups within Transformation I felt this one was special. When I met Eric in person he just exudes this wonderful amazing energy. Debby and I had our first nice chat in Dallas last year and have talked several times since then. Where Eric is a bundle of energy I see Debby as a beautiful sea of serenity. I want equal parts of both! One of the observations I have made lately is that I still have a poor self-image. I need to love myself where I am at. I can't compare myself to the average person losing weight. The Before and even the After pictures don't just upset me, they practically traumatize me. I occasionally make derogatory remarks about myself and it really upsets my husband. We all have bad days but I need to start learning to love myself. Who would think that would be so hard but it is because until I met Dave I have never really felt loved. WHY I AM HERE: I am ready to make the changes I need to make. Usually with previous challenges I had situations come up during the middle of the challenge that blindsided me. This time I already know I am going to be extremely busy so I will have to really work on planning. I currently have 2 part time jobs. I am applying for another one right now that if I am hired will require 7 weeks of training. It is conceivable that for a while I might be working 3 jobs plus we will be buying our first house in the next month or so. I am tired just typing this LOL! I am looking forward to this challenge although not the pictures. I have pretty much accepted that I will never be a t.com champion so I will probably take pictures in clothing that will show off my progress (for accountability sake) rather than shorts and sports bra or tank so that I will not be so traumatized. I have the weekend to decide. I have so much loose skin and scars and such due to losing weight too fast in the past - that is why the traumatization and dealing with the fact that I will never be able to look anything like that Champions we see in the book but I can still be the Champion in my own life. I am going to visualize how fabulously mentally, physcially and spritually healthy I can be for my 50th birthday in September! I have either been ill or recovering from surgery since I got back from Denver in October. I am looking forward to feeling healthy and energetic again! Last edited by kathytnt : 01-07-2011 at 11:28 AM.