Bill Phillip's | Transformation

deniset

Storms come and go. Although I've found myself in the midst of many quick showers or downpours since Jonnae's death, this past week and a half has felt more like the beginning of the flood that had Noah pent up in the ark. However, I know that I am on the brink of seeing the rainbow.

The enemy swoops in every morning to rain on my parade. He gets in my face to taunt the fact that Jonnae is no longer with me. He speaks words of doubt, saying that I am not going to be able to hold up forever. "How can you possibly LIVE without her?"

He's persistant with his attacks. This time last year the whirlwind of her relapse, chemo, bone marrow transplant and second relapse began. We had one month of celebrating her "victory" over leuk after 2 and a half years of chemo, before he reared his ugly head again. It's hard to ignore the dates that were milestones leading up to her death, especially since I have so much time at home in silence to reflect.

As I look for a way to make my passion my "work" and figure out how to contribute to the financial issues that loom, I remind myself that I was born to be a victor. In all things I am more than a conqueror through Christ who loves me. (Romans 8:37) I am like "the Oak Tree"

The Oak Tree

A mighty wind blew night and day.

It stole the oak tree’s leaves away,

Then snapped it’s boughs and pulled it’s bark

until the oak was tired and stark.

But still the oak tree held it’s ground

While other trees fell all around.

The weary wind gave up and spoke,

“How can you still be standing Oak?”

The Oak Tree said, “I know that you

Can break each branch of mine in two,

Carry every leaf away,

Shake my limbs, and make me sway.

But I have roots stretched in the earth,

Growing stronger since my birth.

You’ll never touch them, for you see,

They are the deepest part of me.

Until today, I wasn’t sure

Of just how much I could endure.

But now I’ve found, with thanks to you,

I’m stronger than I ever knew.”

Overcoming Adversity with Faith and Love of my God is what has fertilized these roots of mine. The winds may blow and lightening may strike, but I WILL STAND forever. I have God on my side and will not be shaken.

As I live and breathe, I pray for that same strength to be felt by all who are on this transformation journey.
In His Awesome Name.
Denise

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