This past weekend has been very challenging for me. I have not been eating right at all and I know that I back slid with the stuff that I had been gorging out on. I really feel that I have failed myself with my goals towards the change. I don't know why I started gorging out on everything. It was like I couldn't control my hunger and I just went on an all out binge. I will do my best to burn it off with the mountain biking that I do. But that isn't the point. I want to blow the bridge so I won't binge and feel like crap anymore. As soon as I can I will be going through this household of mine and tossing out all the food that is not good for our health and I will be replacing it with good food. I work at a major hotel on our Island and resort food isn't always the healthiest. So I will need to choose the right foods at work during our brake. I hate this feeling of guilt and anger towards myself. This stings but I feel that it is good for my growth. I must learn from the causes that I set. And right now I feel the negative effects from a not so positive cause. I won't blame anyone and it is time to move ahead of this and be more responsiable for a better choice of cause. I want to blow the bridge!!!!!!!! I have many rivers to cross. As each day passes I find out just who I am not in this challenge and more of who I need to be. And with every river's crossing I find another bridge to blow. I remember an old song that a group called America in the 1970's use to play some of the lyrics said this Don't cross the river if you can't swim the tide.
Thank goodness I know how to swim just in case I blow the bridge out from under me. OOOOOOOkay.... LOL!!!

Aloha,
What an honest post, I really appreciated reading that! I have done the same thing for years and this forum has enlihtened me and given me clarity to see what I am doing to myself. Just 2 weeks ago and had the worst binge and felt so terrible about myself. I can also realate to being in the hositality industry (I spent 13 years in hotels and restaurants) and how it is not always conducive to being healthy.

It seems like you are very positive and making great improvement! I am in the intial stages myself. I heard an interview with Chris Winters and Rise the other day that you might find interesting.

www.transformation-apprentice.info/bcall2.html

All the best,
Sam