Yea, Marty. Krispy Kreme's are making their way into my sub consious too! Why, oh why do they have to post on their signs "HOT"???? Have you ever eaten those things "hot"???? Find me ONE person that can't polish off the entire (o.k. well....maybe not the ENTIRE...but you get my drift) box of those suckers! Good thing the closest one is in Gurnee from me, or you just might find me camped out on their doorstep at 3 a.m. when I can't sleep!

Mine was not Krispy Kremes it was cinabon. YUMMY i so loved the gooey icing! Good thing they are no longer here. I might have a relapse.

5 weeks yesterday.

Things seem to be falling into place.....I can start this Transformation on stable ground (well, more stable than 5 weeks ago!). Timing is everything.....I'm blessed that I was brought to this site when I was, 5 weeks ago....blessed that I had the strength to post my problem, and the strength to continue to come here daily for support. I feel good. Now I want the next level. I have been contacted by so many that have told me how proud they were of me in coming forward and opening up, and they hope to be able to do the same. I've been told they are going to follow my progress in hopes that they too, can make the first step. . I can't let them down. I am going to "be the change" that they want. Thanks for everyone's support!

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You are becoming Deb.................... You are becoming. I am humbled by your strength, and honored with your friendship...................

Way to go Deb! That's awesome. 18 years ago I thought it would be impossible to go 1 week without drinking. I felt like I had to have it to just get through the week but also realizing the trail of destruction to myself & others it was creating. Then, 1 day I finally put a stop to it when I kneeled down at the top of mountain and said "god help me - I can't do it by myself anymore". That was the last day I took a drink. So many gifts have come into my life since I put it behind me. You are not alone. You too will find life becomes so much richer and "real" without it. Each day, I start with the 3rd & 7th step prayers from AA.

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Originally Posted by imzwact Way to go Deb! That's awesome. 18 years ago I thought it would be impossible to go 1 week without drinking. I felt like I had to have it to just get through the week but also realizing the trail of destruction to myself & others it was creating. Then, 1 day I finally put a stop to it when I kneeled down at the top of mountain and said "god help me - I can't do it by myself anymore". That was the last day I took a drink. So many gifts have come into my life since I put it behind me. You are not alone. You too will find life becomes so much richer and "real" without it. Each day, I start with the 3rd & 7th step prayers from AA.

Wow! 18 years! That's a whole lot of time!!!! Thanks so much for posting....I posted in my blog today that it has been 6 weeks, today! Maybe some people might get tired of seeing this same ole post each week with me putting another chauk mark up there, but it seems to be working, and if it's not broke, don't fix it!!!!! Having dinner with the "girls" tonight.....Mexican.....thankfully, I don't like Tequilla!!!!

Hey Deb, just checking in on you , congrats for making a month and over now! Keep going forward my friend!

Deb (Grammy),

If this is not a God thing, then I dont know what is!! Our lives have crossed again and we have led such similar lives that its almost frightening. You were the most unbelievable teammate to me 2 years ago on Tracker and we both were on top of the world at that time! "I" had quit drinking for almost 6 months during that time, but I had quit for all the wrong reasons.

God has helped me remain sober since May 5th! He has also taken away my craving for alcohol, and that is just a wonderful feeling friends. It is hard to explain. My world revolved around drinking; it controlled me. I could not imagine how "normal people" lived without it, better yet, how they had fun and enjoyed life. That was by far my biggest fear, that I would never have fun again. Not only do I have fun, but I dont have to worry about what I might have said to someone, or did to hurt another!

I am currently going through a divorce that will be final Monday. Without God in my life helping me through this, I would have definitely turned to alcohol to ease the pain, as I always had when times were tough. Deb, you are such a sweet and caring person, if there is ever anything that I can do to help you, please drop me a line or give me a call!

Love you,
Todd

OMG Todd!!! How cool is this, and oh how God works! OMG OMG OMG!!! Well...it's all here in black and white.....nothing hiding now. We shall be good friends...the best friends. The same to you in regards to "if you ever need anything!".....I'm so glad you are here! Wow. May 5th. I was May 15th....so not too much after you and like you, I just haven't had the "need" for my ole crutch. I'm so afraid to say that God took away my desire for it....but it sure feels like it, because everytime I tried to stop before....something would happen and I'd fall back into my trap. Things have happened since May 15th, yet, here I sit...not reaching for that crutch. I'm so glad your here and we connected! Thanks. Thanks for being there! Off to bed (I'm usually a real early to bed person, and it's almost midnight here!....I'll check in with you tomorrow...k?

Good Luck to you Todd! You have "Let God" and are following right along... isn't it amazing how much easier it really is to live alcohol free! Your post is inspiring to many who turn to alcohol with hopes of comfort and we know alcohol ALWAYS works just the opposite, and fortunately you have found your way out... Congratulations to you!

Hey Todd! Thinking of you....hope yesterday went o.k. Email me and let me know if I can help at all.....

Deb, your posts are inspiring to me as one who turns to alcohol. I have been clean since May 30th 2008. Congratulations to you!

Hey Everyone! Sorry I've been MIA for a while....lots going on here in my life. VERY close friend recently diagnosed with cancer....it's been challenging to say the least, but all are moving in the right direction, with Denise and Jonnae in my sight, always. My challenge is not doing so well, but that's a story for my blog. Maybe I'll get that going today, since I have to work today. It will give me time to spend on the computer. My computer time has been at a premium since this all happened. I'll check in with you soon.....

cwinters - You are doing just WONDERFUL! Keep up the great work, and always know that you can email me ANYTIME you need!

Hunter123 - Thanks for the information on Antebuse. I"ve never heard of it. I will so some research on it! Thanks for thinking of me.....

Until later my friends.....

Thank you all for the insights. Today is day ONE for me. Please pray.

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Originally Posted by NewMe Thank you all for the insights. Today is day ONE for me. Please pray.

I'm right here for you with whatever you need. I'll be at my computer most of the day, so email me if you need to. YOU CAN DO THIS, and I PROMISE life is soooo much better on this side!

Three cheers for the Lioness Queen! Carry on high kings

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Originally Posted by Deb I'm right here for you with whatever you need. I'll be at my computer most of the day, so email me if you need to. YOU CAN DO THIS, and I PROMISE life is soooo much better on this side!

Just joined today and was intrigued by the alcohol issues you once had. Refreshing that someone can admit this openly. As I've gotten older - and life stuff has happened t me -- I have been turning more and more to alcohol (wine in particular - martinis on special occassions) as a stress reliever or if I am bored and I feel I deserve a drink to 'invigorate' me. I don't even like the taste, I just like the way it makes me feel at that moment. I feel invincible. My friends and husband have noticed lately that I drink like a fish particularly when it's 'free'. I don't spend money on myself at all, but I don't bat an eyelash when I go to a liquor warehouse and stock up - for company, of course -- at the tune of $100 or more. Meanwhile, I am wearing the same black pants everyday to work, because I 'can't afford' to buy clothes for myself. I don't drink everyday but when I do, I am almost certain to have a very wakeful night and a lousy morning. I don't think AA would work for me, since I don't like to unload myself in front of all those people. I am just a heavy social drinker and I don't really get drunk. Today is the first day that I've decided to not drink anymore - and it's a Sat. evening with nothing else to do. I've decided that at the age of 54 I am too old for excuses and no one is going to save me except me. Thanks for listening.

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Originally Posted by southslav54 Just joined today and was intrigued by the alcohol issues you once had. Refreshing that someone can admit this openly. As I've gotten older - and life stuff has happened t me -- I have been turning more and more to alcohol (wine in particular - martinis on special occassions) as a stress reliever or if I am bored and I feel I deserve a drink to 'invigorate' me. I don't even like the taste, I just like the way it makes me feel at that moment. I feel invincible. My friends and husband have noticed lately that I drink like a fish particularly when it's 'free'. I don't spend money on myself at all, but I don't bat an eyelash when I go to a liquor warehouse and stock up - for company, of course -- at the tune of $100 or more. Meanwhile, I am wearing the same black pants everyday to work, because I 'can't afford' to buy clothes for myself. I don't drink everyday but when I do, I am almost certain to have a very wakeful night and a lousy morning. I don't think AA would work for me, since I don't like to unload myself in front of all those people. I am just a heavy social drinker and I don't really get drunk. Today is the first day that I've decided to not drink anymore - and it's a Sat. evening with nothing else to do. I've decided that at the age of 54 I am too old for excuses and no one is going to save me except me. Thanks for listening.

I can post a lot about that little line up there in red. I am here to listen, show support, share.....but you said it right there (in your last line that I highlighted) and that is the first place you have to start. I've been missing on the boards for a while and just started coming back around the end of December. You see....I'm human.....and was ashamed that I let all my friends down here because I slipped back into my bad habit (hence the "once had" in red above). Typical of someone with something to hide, I left. I didn't want to respond to this and have you think that I had been sober for these past months. There was a bump in my road, but it's behind me now, just like all the other bumps, and I'm back here to.....listen (to you and for me), support, and share. I'm very proud that you've decided to stop drinking. Just take one day at a time, and be proud of each one of them....they are something to cherish and be proud of! Take care of yourself....Deb

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Trust God, Clean house, Help others.
I've been sober since May 9,1995.
Life hasn't been easy but it's way beter than it ever was.
I owe it all to AA.

Today is day one of my transformation, the alcohol thing is going to be tough for me. Today is saturday and i usually spend saturday nights alone at home drinking to escape the lonliness and boredom I feel on a daily basis. Its like a vicious cycle.......................Its not that I want to sit home alone and drink, but because I am so disgusted with my body I do not want to go out in public,and I get lonely and bored, so I drink and then I binge on food and then I gain weight and I isolate myself because of my weight...........................it never ends...................Tonight I will for the first time deal with this differently. If I get lonely I can call a friend. If I am bored I can read or watch a movie or duhhhh EXERCISE! No more excuses I am changing my life this time and I know I can do it as long as I have the support of all of you. I never truly believed I could change until I found this website. No one knows how grateful I am and how it feels to have hope for the first time in so long. Thank you for listening.