a food addict, self abuser, and binge/purger.
I self abuse by being addicted to laxatives and have been taking them daily for years. Usually three or four a day and also adding Miralax to a cup of coffee When I binge, I then purge. I don't purge daily, "only" when I binge.
I also abuse by denying myself food. I will get mad at myself for eating and then deny myself food until dinner time with my children. Then eat a tiny bit, just enough to make it look like I ate something. This is not a good habit since I am pre-diabetic/insulin resistant and have caused myself to have low blood sugar episodes bad enough that I thought I was going to pass out.

I have been reading posts on this forum and I am in tears for the second time tonight. I see myself in so many posts.

Food is my addiction. It is my best friend and worst enemy. It is there no matter what emotion I am feeling. It does not judge. It does not criticize. It is there. I am powerless against my addiction. Even knowing that I have a free day coming, it is so hard to stay the course.

I do not know how to break these addictions. I do admit I am powerless over my addictions and self abusive behavior. I have read posts tonight about OA. I will be seeking out information about OA and probably be requesting a sponsor...but that part will be hard for me.

Probably more soul baring and honesty to come.

Awesome! I have much admiration for you in admitting being powerless over your addictions. Sounds like you are ready to really take the bull by the horns! There are a number of OA members here on T.com. Have you checked out the Addiction Recovery Group? Best wishes with your Transformation and OA! Keep us posted with your success
-Karyl

Mom.................this is a big beautiful step in the right direction. There are alot of members attending addiction meetings, please contact:

Bobbyg1018: Always remember where you came from, but know where you are going! / Bill Phillips Transformation

He is a huge help with addiction and meetings.

Thanks so much for being so open and honest about yourself. I can see that you are taking the steps that are necessary to successfully continue your transformation journey. I am addicted to food too and while I do not purge, nor have I taken laxatives, I understand the emotional connection with food. There is not an OA group in my area but I have checked out their website and there is a lot of valuable information there. They also have online and telephone meetings regularly. I think it is a great thing for you to seek out a group in your area. Another person worth talking to in this area is Chris Winters. Praying for you and wishing you all the best---Kerri---

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Originally Posted by MomoftwoinGA a food addict, self abuser, and binge/purger. I self abuse by being addicted to laxatives and have been taking them daily for years. Usually three or four a day and also adding Miralax to a cup of coffee When I binge, I then purge. I don't purge daily, "only" when I binge. I also abuse by denying myself food. I will get mad at myself for eating and then deny myself food until dinner time with my children. Then eat a tiny bit, just enough to make it look like I ate something. This is not a good habit since I am pre-diabetic/insulin resistant and have caused myself to have low blood sugar episodes bad enough that I thought I was going to pass out. I have been reading posts on this forum and I am in tears for the second time tonight. I see myself in so many posts. Food is my addiction. It is my best friend and worst enemy. It is there no matter what emotion I am feeling. It does not judge. It does not criticize. It is there. I am powerless against my addiction. Even knowing that I have a free day coming, it is so hard to stay the course. I do not know how to break these addictions. I do admit I am powerless over my addictions and self abusive behavior. I have read posts tonight about OA. I will be seeking out information about OA and probably be requesting a sponsor...but that part will be hard for me. Probably more soul baring and honesty to come.

I am so proud of you. I too have a food addiction/binge eating problem. I have a group here called Binge Eaters. I would love to have you join us. I look forward to getting to know you!!

5 simple words. "I am so proud of you" and I am crying like a baby.,
Thank you. I am honored to join the group.

Mom, you are so brave to admit your powerlessness. Taking the right steps towards recovery has changed my life in more ways than I could ever count. You are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. You will not regret the past, nor wish to shut the door on it. You will comprehend the word serenity and you will know peace. Love to you, Jane

I am also a binge eater. I have been to OA meetings and they helped me. There are no groups that I am aware of near me. (I live in GA, also). I will see you in the addictions boards. I am here for you as are the others in this community.
Lots and lots of love!
Lesley

I applaud your bravery for being able to share that with your Transformation family. Now that you've taken this crucial first step, you can begin the healing. Remember that this is something you shouldn't try to tackle on your own. You need the support of a group. Please be sure to seek out a recovery group. Start with looking up overeaters anonymous online. They are a great resource. We are with you. You are loved.

Thanks for having the courage to reach out! Over eating in my opinion is one of the most pervasive addictions in American culture. It gets the least amount of exposure and public education and it has some unique circumstances not found in other types of addictions... that is... the drug of choice surrounds us all!

However it is just as serious as any other kind of substance addiction. Over Eating or Binge eating follows the same three stages as say.. alcoholism:

1.) Chronic = get worse over time.
2.) Progressive = must have more of the drug over time..
3.) Fatal

As a recovering binge eater I have become passionate about this under served addiction. Below is a link to 30 minute conference call I did with one of our very own T.com members who has successfully managed her Over Eating for the past 3 years. There are also many helpful links..

Please feel free to contact me if you need support.

http://www.transformation-apprentice.info/bcall2.html

Much care and respect,

Chris Winters

I totally understand your turmoil and pain--been there, done that for over 35 years. You are NOT alone. Many suffer as you do but do have not your level of awareness--which is a HUGE step. Sadly, this disorder/addiction affects more people than our society cares to admit, and our media enables it with its emphasis on food = comfort.

BUT there is hope--I see my light at the end of my tunnel and strongly advise you seek help through professional counseling, groups, the T-community, and written resources.

One book that helped me alot is Shrink Yourself by Dr. Roger Gould, M.D. and his website:

www.shrinkyourself.com

Please feel free to send me a personal e-mail. It helps to know you have support.

My best, Guccis, aka Jenny

I want to commend you for taking a very important step in your healing. Taking those behaviors out of the shadows and placing them in the light, expressing yourself authentically and honestly, is a very vital step in healing. It takes courage and you deserve some recognition for sharing your experience so openly. I address these types of issues every day in my community. I have a support forum for intuitive eaters who are healing from eating disorder, obesity and underweight conditions, and body image issues. I myself am an intuitive eating counselor and have recovered from my own battle with the trifecta of eating disorder... anorexia, bulimia, and binge eating disorder. The behavior that you are struggling with is classic bulimia. This is so hard on your body and can cause a whole slew of serious medical complications. It is very important that you find yourself added support to help you through this.

Hands down, this is the best resource you can use to help you find the support you need:

Something Fishy Web Site on Eating Disorders -
www.eating-disorders.net

There you can find all kinds of resources, support methods, and professionals in your area who can give you a helping hand. I wish the best for you in finding the support that you need. Recovery is possible. I send you thoughts of peace and healing.

-Shannon