STEP 1

Heart and Soul
Having looked inward to do some soul-searching, three heartfelt reasons for making the decision to transform my health and life are:
1. My body is a very sensitive organism, and only by taking focused care of it will it last and serve me well throughout an active, involved, and serving life. I do not want to find myself in a position where my body cannot keep up with the desires of my heart and mind.
2. In order to meet the needs of those I love and care for in the ways that I want to, I first need to take care of myself so that I have the strength, energy, and focus to discern their needs and meet them.
3. I want to have energy. I have a husband I adore, two active boys who need me, and classrooms full of teenagers who depend on the energy and excitement I bring to our relationships. I need to cast off the exhaustion that has permeated my being and find in myself new wells of energy.

Emotions
In recent days and weeks, the three most predominant inner feelings I have been experiencing are:
1. Frustration from having too much to do and never enough time. When I am exhausted, I want to sleep more which, in turn, never happens, which feeds the exhaustion.
2. Discontent with my present physical shape. I know I can be stronger, leaner, and more beautiful to myself. I know I can feel more attractive to my husband. I want to stop wishing and wanting and instead, make it happen.
3. Depression, both in general and regarding the lack of energy that I have that keeps me from doing the activities that I want to do with my boys. My time with them is so short. I don't have time to be "too tired."

Mindset
Three patterns of thinking or beliefs which may have limited my ability to change in the past are:
1. I don't have enough hours in the day to exercise.
2. Eating "healthy foods" isn't as easy, as rewarding or as satisfying as eating "unhealthy foods" - especially when eating out.
3. I don't like exercise - it hurts and I don't know what exercises to do to improve myself.

Body
Three objectively verifiable statements which reflect my physical condition right now are:
1. My weight first thing in the morning, before I've eaten, is 140 pounds. My measurement at my belly button is 36.5" My pictures document that I carry much of my body fat around my hips and belly.
2. My max upper body workout at the end of each muscle group at present is as follows: Bench Press: 12 reps x45 lbs = Intensity Level 10
DB Shoulder Press: 12 reps x 5x2 lbs = Level 9 (Followed by 12 Side Raises x 5x2 =
Level 10)
Seated Row (Machine): 12 reps x 40 lbs = 10
Tricep Ext: 12 reps x 5x2 = 10 DB Curls: Could not
finish muscle group because I started vomiting.
Finished last set of 12 x 5x2 after 4 sets of 10x2 at Level 7.
3. Present body fat (per calipers): 28.8 Gross.


The Summit! Heart and Soul
Looking forward, 18 weeks from now, three changes I will have made that show I’m more aligned with what’s important to me at a heart and soul level are:
1. I’ll feel good about myself and my body, heart will be more joyful which will allow me to participate in life and have more fun with it all.
2. By making time to take care of myself, I will have more positive energy and strength to share with others.
3. I will feel more energetic and less lethargic, able and ready to go and do things with my boys and family during the few years that we have together.

Emotions
Looking forward, 18 weeks from now, the three most predominant inner feelings which describe what I’ll be experiencing are:
1) Personal strength, Confidence and security about my body and appearance.
2) Joy at knowing that I am healthy and an athlete
3) Energized and inspired because I’m moving forward in a positive direction.

Mindset
Three new patterns of thinking or beliefs which expand my ability to make healthy changes for the better will be:
1) I DO have time for exercise and eating right. In fact, on the days I work out, I’ll discover I can get more done because I’ll have greater clarity and focus.
2) I can be above average. I am BETTER than merely “ok.”
3) I AM worth the attention and time required to take care of myself. If I don’t take care of my self, I will not have the energy to take care of others.

Body
Three objectively verifiable statements which will describe the new and improved condition of my body 18 weeks from now are:
1) I will fit comfortably into my size 6 clothing.
2) My weight first thing in the morning will be 130.
3) My after photo will show that I have regained my joy in life and my confidence in myself. My posture and my presence will radiate my inner peace and happiness. The stress that is evident in the "before" pictures will be GONE!!

Wonderful work Kimmie! What you said here is absolutely true and something Bill teaches alot

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1) I DO have time for exercise and eating right. In fact, on the days I work out, I’ll discover I can get more done because I’ll have greater clarity and focus.

So true Kimmie, exercising energizes us and when we are healthy, fit and strong, we have WAY more ability to live a vibrant healthy life.


Great job.

Thank you for your positive reinforcement, Thia. I know this to be true, - again, something I'm good at understanding cognitively, but I need to work better at turning it into action more regularly. I was inspired by a speaker on last Thursday night's Transformation Radio when she said that everything comes down to one decision: "Will I choose to exercise today, or will I choose to NOT exercise today? Will I choose to eat the ice cream, or NOT eat the ice cream?"

I actually applied that principle today when I chose to eat the fat-free yogurt with granola instead of the pumpkin pie with whipped topping!! Progress is being made!

I know when I exercise, I sleep better, I have more energy, I think more clearly... I've been there. I KNOW this. I simply need to make sure I meditate on ALL these things. I need to convince myself that I'm worth taking the time to do it. That taking the time to do it will result in more energy. That more energy creates more hours in my day. That more hours in my day creates more time for my boys, so REALLY, I'm not LOSING anything at ALL except lethargy, depression, subdued consciousness, guilt, and a host of other baggage and negative emotions and physical realities.

See what I mean about knowing it cognitively? Please help me know it in my heart and soul, too. Help me turn it into action!!
Thank you for being here for us!
~Kimberly

I have these posted on my profile, in my other groups, but I feel I need to be accountable in each group I join, so here goes:


Starting Stats and Assignment 1
Heart and Soul
Having looked inward to do some soul-searching, three heartfelt reasons for making the decision to transform my health and life are:

I’m tired of standing on the outside of life and looking in. I want to feel connected with people and stop feeling like I am “less than.”
I’m scared that my health will deteriorate further and I won’t be able to walk or do any of the things I want to.
I want to attract the right people to my life. I want to be respected and appreciated.

Emotions
In recent days and weeks, the three most predominant inner feelings I have been experiencing are:

I feel very alone. My friends don’t have time for me. They are probably sick of hearing me talk about my broken life and how I want to change, but I never follow through.
I’m not living the life I envision. I’ve been stuck in the same rut for years.
I’m embarrassed and ashamed of how my body looks. I don’t get out and do things I used to. I haven’t seen my family in over 14 years because I don’t want them to see me like this.

Mindset
Three patterns of thinking or beliefs which may have limited my ability to change in the past are:

I can’t do that, it’s too hard.
I will never have what I really want in life.
I’m not worthy.

Body
Three objectively verifiable statements which reflect my physical condition right now are:

My before photos show evidence of my physical condition. I have physical limitations because of my knees and all this weight.
My current weight is 308. My waist measurement is 50 inches.
My blood pressure is 156/90. I haven’t been taking my meds because no insurance and the scrip has run out. My A1C level when last checked was 7.1

Before Front. My stomach looks like a man’s beer gut. You can see how swollen my lower legs are from lymphedema and how much work I need.


12-26-10 - As you can see, I am what doctors call “morbidly obese.” That means you run the risk of all the factors for heart disease, diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol. However, my cardiologist says my heart is healthy.


Side– 12-26-10 - This is so hard to look at. I look like I’m 9 months pregnant in the back and the front.

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Heart and Soul
Looking forward, 18 weeks from now, three changes I will have made that show I’m more aligned with what’s important to me at a heart and soul level are:
I am living more in tune with my heart. The destructive chatter in my head is gone!
I am walking the 3-mile course at Memorial Park
My heart is joyful and I am participating in life, no longer a spectator.
Emotions
Looking forward, 18 weeks from now, the three most predominant inner feelings which describe what I’ll be experiencing are:
My confidence has grown and I’m so excited to continue this journey.
My doctor will confirm that my A1C is in the normal range and my blood pressure has improved to the point where my dosage has been reduced.
I make plans and follow through; I am out there in the world and experiencing life again
Mindset
Three new patterns of thinking or beliefs which expand my ability to make healthy changes for the better will be:
I love working out and eating healthy.
I see what I want and I go for it!
I deserve all the good coming my way. I deserve love and respect.
Body
Three objectively verifiable statements which will describe the new and improved condition of my body 18 weeks from now are:
My after photos will show that my body looks better, has less fat and, more muscle and I look happier.
I weigh 250 pounds now; I lost 10½ inches on my waist and it now measures 40.
My blood pressure is 120/80, back on meds until the doc takes me off. My A1C is 6 and my blood glucose level average is below 100.

Kimmie! Oh great words of inspiration and YOU are so worth it. I loved what you shared there. Meditating on the things that will make a difference. ACTION is key Kimmie, you truy do remind me of myself when I got here Kimmie, I too spent years 'knowing' what needed to be done and this is one of the lessons I truly have learned from Bill and Transformation is taking the action steps on what I knew cognitively. Stick with Bill teaching you how Kimmie and you cant go wrong - trust me- Ive been exactly where you are RIGHT NOW. Im so so so happy that you are here with us and cant wait to watch you grow


Jene! Thank you for sharing your step one with us here at the Higher Ground you are off to a fantastic start and I know you can do this - one step at a time.

Heart and Soul
Having looked inward to do some soul-searching, three heartfelt reasons for making the decision to transform my health and life are:
1. It’s time for me to start “going confidently in the direction of my dreams…to live the live I have imagined (Thoreau)” I have felt helpless and made excuses for why I have not accomplished or tried to achieve my goals. I am transforming to find inner peace knowing I did the best I can do.
2. I want my son to respect me for who I am as a person even though I am not able to have him live with me full-time. I don’t want him to think that I have abandoned him so I could have an easier life as a single person like his father has accused many times. I want to look back on this time in my life and have proof for myself and for him I was doing everything in my power to become a better mother and person.
3. I want to make changes in my life that will benefit me as a person and not what is good for other people. Too often, I am accommodating to others. If I spent the same amount of time and devoted it to myself, I will finish this challenge with near perfection. It’s time for me to start investing more in myself while I still help others, but not to the point where it depletes my determination, strength, and energy.

Emotions
In recent days and weeks, the three most predominant inner feelings I have been experiencing are:
1. I have recently been feeling the effects of overdrive due to the goals I have set for myself academically and financially. I know if I work out more, eat better, and do the assignments as the program dictates, I will be able to better handle the stresses of everyday life.
2. Embarrassed about my physical condition. I would like to find a boyfriend, but am constantly put down by the rejection that they are not attracted to me physically even though emotionally I have much to give.
3. Anger towards myself for squandering the last ten years of my life to become successful by finishing school, becoming financially stable, and maintaining a long-term, romantic relationship.

Mindset
Three patterns of thinking or beliefs which may have limited my ability to change in the past are:
1. I do not need to be emotionally and physically fit to accomplish my goals. On the contrary, I need to be at my highest levels to continue to chase my dream of going to medical school and be in top form academically, physically, emotionally, and spiritually.
2. I cannot afford the right foods in the right portions to be able to complete this program.
3. I can continue to make progress without exercising on a regular basis. Inconsistency is OK as long as I do not give up. On the contrary, I need to be working out consistently each week to keep making progress on all levels.

Body
Three objectively verifiable statements which reflect my physical condition right now are:
1. My weight first thing in the morning, before I've eaten, is 196 pounds. My waist measurement is 42” down from 50” post pregnancy with my son.
2. I am able to run and walk alternating intervals for one mile in twenty minutes.
3. My glucose levels are stable 80% of the time.


The Summit! Heart and Soul
Looking forward, 18 weeks from now, three changes I will have made that show I’m more aligned with what’s important to me at a heart and soul level are:
1. I will have inner peace.
2. I will feel it does not matter what my son’s father says regarding our current living situation.
3. I will know I am doing everything I can to take care of myself first in order to be able to help others.

Emotions
Looking forward, 18 weeks from now, the three most predominant inner feelings which describe what I’ll be experiencing are:
1. Satisfaction that I am doing what I have always wanted to do.
2. Courage that I can handle the stresses and obstacles that will be in my way.
3. Determination to keep achieving my academic, physical, emotional, and spiritual goals.

Mindset
Three new patterns of thinking or beliefs which expand my ability to make healthy changes for the better will be:
1. I can follow the nutrition regimen with careful planning and financially savvy grocery shopping.
2. I deserve success.
3. I will look forward to working out knowing the benefits will help me in all aspects of my transformation

Body
Three objectively verifiable statements which will describe the new and improved condition of my body 18 weeks from now are:
1. I will be able to run a 5K road race without stopping to walk.
2. My weight first thing in the morning will be 170 lbs.
3. My waist will measure 36” or less.

Were I am now...

Heart and Soul:
Having looked inward to do some soul-searching, three heartfelt reasons for making the decision to transform my health and life are:
1) I plan on living to be 100 years old. I have always told my daughters that. I want to stick around to help them in their lives not be a burden!
2)I realize that if I want to live a long healthy life then it's time to treat my body with the proper habits that will allow it to carry me through another 49 years at leas
3)I know better and yet I have allowed myself to be run down both mentally and physically...it is time to live as I preach and take my control back!

Emotions
In recent days and weeks, the three most predominant inner feelings I have been experiencing are:
1)Frustrated that I keep running in circles in my life and financial situation doesn't get any better no matter how hard I work and try! I have always hated debt , even when I had a 800 credit score. Now I find myself with the worse credit score and being sued over $320 from a payday loan place! I am not a bad person and would so pay everyone if only I could. Each loan I had to let go into collections, has been loans for food not extras in life!
2)Upset at myself for feeling defeated. The" I want to live to be 100" girl is feeling as though 51 has been enough and I can not imagine living to be 100 if it is just going to be non stop struggles! I woke up New Years eve crying and could not even pull myself together before walking into my office (as I always can do). Spent the whole day having bots of crying and feeling defeated!
3)Upset at myself for feeling defeated. The" I want to live to be 100" girl is feeling as though 51 has been enough and I can not imagine living to be 100 if it is just going to be non stop struggles! I woke up New Years eve crying and could not even pull myself together before walking into my office (as I always can do). Spent the whole day having bots of crying and feeling defeated!

Mindset:
Three patterns of thinking or beliefs which may have limited my ability to change in the past are:
1)I don't have the energy to exercise, I am exhausted all the time...work and home and even when home racking my brain on how can I make more money!
2)I can't eat healthy, healthy food cost too much. I'm stuck in this circle of defeat.
3)I am menopausal woman....by time I get through the menopause, I will be too fat to ever lose this. I was a size four five years ago, now I am a size 10. I don't look bad according to others since my weight is evenly distributed, but I feel the extra pounds and with my two knees that need replaced the weight causes alot of extra pain!

Body
Three objectively verifiable statements which reflect my physical condition right now are:
1)My weight is 157 lbs, My measurements are terrible, I measure around bottom of my chest what I use to measure (5yrs ago) around the fullest part of my chest! My chest hurts my back...my waist is 33" when avg. through my life was 26-28" tops!My hips use to be 34" most of my life and now they are 39"!
2)I feel tremendous pain in every step I take in my knees from extra weight. I was told 13yrs ago they needed to be replaced and to keep my weight in check and try to stay off stairs. I still climb stairs with the pain , but my breath gets zapped! I don't have insurance so I don't know how my cholesterol and blood pressure is these days. I have spells of light headiness like I'm going to black out.
3)I will take photos as soon as I can...I do not like looking at myself at all any more. I always felt young for my age but now I feel OLD!


Where I want to be in 18 weeks

Heart and Soul
Looking forward, 18 weeks from now, three changes I will have made that show I’m more aligned with what’s important to me at a heart and soul level are:

1)I will be living as I have taught my daughters to live and being a positive influence to them and everyone around me
2)I will be blocking all negative thoughts and replacing them with positive can do attitude thoughts......clearing me to be a shining light!
3)When I look in the mirror I will smile and say yep that is me and I deserve to be in great shape and feeling good about myself!I

Emotions:
Looking forward, 18 weeks from now, the three most predominant inner feelings which describe what I’ll be experiencing are:

1)I will be more happy with myself and proud that I didn't give up or in...I will be proud of overcoming more objections and getting my grove back!
2)I will feel confident in who I am and my capabilities to continue overcoming all obstacles and see all obstacles as growths in my being!
3)I will feel more energetic , and live my life more fully!

Mindset
Three new patterns of thinking or beliefs which expand my ability to make healthy changes for the better will be:

1) clarity and focus...I will know that everything I have preached to my daughters is real and I am not just a "positive thinker" living in fantasy land . (as some around me may think)
2)mentally and emotionally,I will believe again that I will live to be healthy 100 year old!
3)I will be who I have always tried to be but lost track of over these last eight years after I lost my third daughter, Carisma at 8 months fo pregnancy July 2002.

Body
Three objectively verifiable statements which will describe the new and improved condition of my body 18 weeks from now are:
1)My after photo will be not the old carol but a brand new improved Carol. I will never take my health and my body for granted again.
2)In 18 weeks I will forget I was so tired and exhausted.
3)In 18 weeks I will feel like one hot Momma at 51!

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Originally Posted by odi ok. i am here. with all my resistance and willingness. i have been working with my sister Tori (fitme) for about a month and she suggested i get some support here. i have no idea how to navigate the threads and feel like i am overwhelmed. and many people want to be my friend which i think is kinda odd because they don't even know me. but... i do trust and as a member of a 12 step community i have a general idea about how it works and the importance of it all but it feels weird to be the newcomer and need help.

You are welcome here and the hand of friendship and sometimes hugs are there and are real !
This transformation is a lot about love and giving ( paying it forward) . It is real and honest care . Come on in and get started
Go and post your before pic and get started on assignment #1.
Do you have the book yet ?
Always ,
ron

Great work Jen

Erin, Carol and Kimberly that's some good work , right on track
ron

Hi everyone!!! I'm starting tomorrow, and uploading my photo's tonight...yikes I'm excited to get started and just wondering if I should follow the Body for Life food and workout program, while going throught the 18 step process (I have the book). Also just wondering who else is starting tomorrow and maybe we could follow each others process...Thanks and best of luck to everyone!!!!!!!!!!

Hi Jenny if you make it over to the Main Grand Central thread - 18 week home there are many of us starting this journey with you. Come on over there and join in and meet everyone and introduce yourself to us all. When you get your step one done come on in here and post it and there is a thread for your before photos too. Great to have you on board.

Heart and Soul


Having looked inward to do some soul-searching, three heartfelt reasons for making the decision to transform my health and life are:
Example:

• 1) I want to set a healthy example for my kids to follow.
• 2) I’ve been taking care of other people, but neglecting myself. Now I’m going to renew my health and energy so I have more to give.
• 3) I’m tired of being tired and I’m ready to feel energetic, inspired, and confident again!

I'm tired of feeling tired and like I can't do things. I want to feel like I can do anything. I want to feel like getting up in the morning. I want energy. I want to feel confident, not like hiding all the time because of the way I look. I want to wear clothes that fit right and feel good and aren't designed to hide and mask as much as possible. I want to be healthy and active for as long as possible, so I need to get started making that happen now.

Emotions


In recent days and weeks, the three most predominant inner feelings I have been experiencing are:
Example:

• 1) Unsettling concern about my weight and heart health; fearful that I might not live my full life.
• 2) Embarrassed and ashamed about my condition, to the point that I don’t get out and do things like I used to.
• 3) Frustrated because I feel stuck in the situation I’m in.

Shame - I feel like I have to hide all the time. Fear - I'm afraid of never feeling good again, but I'm also afraid of failing. Anger - at myself for letting myself get like this, and at others who don't seem to have this problem.

Mindset


Three patterns of thinking or beliefs which may have limited my ability to change in the past are:
Example:

• 1) Other people can lose weight and become healthier; even happier; but I can’t. This is just the way I am.
• 2) I don’t have the time for exercise and eating healthy.
• 3) It’s too late for me, I’m too old.

My depression and use of anti-depressants is causing me to gain weight/ be unable to lose weight. If I had money for a personal trainer and nutritionist, I could get in shape too, but I'm just a regular person. I can't give up comfort food.

Body


Three objectively verifiable statements which reflect my physical condition right now are:
Example:

• 1) My weight first thing in the morning, before I’ve eaten, is 217 lbs. My mid-section measurement at the widest point is 46 inches.
• 2) My total cholesterol level is 234 ng/ml. My blood pressure: 142/87 as measured by my doctor.
• 3) My present physical condition is evident in my before photo.

My weight is the highest it's ever been in my life. 202.8 lbs. My clothing size is the highest it's ever been. 16W. My present physical condition is evident in my before photo.

Kim! Fantastic great job getting part 1 up! You are on your way. What a way to tackle that procrastination - you are going to do great. Very good step work, the things you have shared here many of us have felt and Im so proud of you for opening up and getting this done.

Heart and Soul


Looking forward, 18 weeks from now, three changes I will have made that show I’m more aligned with what’s important to me at a heart and soul level are:
Example:

• 1) I will be setting a healthy example for my whole family and we’ll all be getting healthier together.
• 2) By making the time to take care of myself, I will have more positive energy and strength to share with others.
• 3) I'll feel good about myself and my heart will be more joyful which will allow me to participate in life and have more fun with it all.

I will be taking care of myself by eating healthier. I will have exercise as an integral part of my life. I will love myself and the progress I have made, which will make me happier and able to enjoy life and the people I love.

Emotions


Looking forward, 18 weeks from now, the three most predominant inner feelings which describe what I’ll be experiencing are:
Example:

• 1) I will be more confident and secure about my overall health and my doctor will report that my total cholesterol and blood pressure are now within the optimal range.
• 2) I’ll feel good about the improvements I’ve already made and excited about continuing the journey.
• 3) I’ll feel more energized and inspired because I’m moving forward in a positive direction for the first time in a long time.

I will feel more confident. I will feel like I have made major accomplishments and be proud of myself. I will feel more energetic and ready to experience all life has to offer.

Mindset


Three new patterns of thinking or beliefs which expand my ability to make healthy changes for the better will be:
Example:

• 1) My results will offer proof that I really can make healthy changes in my body and life.
• 2) I’ll show I do have time for exercise and eating right; in fact, on the days I work out, I’ll discover I can get more done because I’ll have greater clarity and focus.
• 3) I’ll prove it’s never too late to make healthy changes physically, mentally and emotionally!

I will not let negative thoughts influence who I am and who I want to be. I don't have to have lots of money or time; I can still make healthy changes to my life. My age and past negative cycles do not determine who or what I am.

Body


Three objectively verifiable statements which will describe the new and improved condition of my body 18 weeks from now are:
Example:

• 1) Within 18 weeks, I will be 30 lbs lighter. My weight first thing in the morning, before I’ve eaten, will be 187 lbs. My mid-section measurement at its widest point will be 34 inches.
• 2) My total cholesterol level will be below 200 ng/ml and my blood pressure will be in the optimal range which is below 120/80.
• 3) My after photo will show that my body will look much healthier than it did before. There will be less bodyfat, firmer muscles, and a youthful posture. You’ll see an authentically confident and joyful smile too.

I will be 30 lbs. lighter. My weight will be 172 lbs. My clothing size will be 14R or smaller. My after photo will show that my body is much healthier than it was 18 weeks ago.

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Originally Posted by MissC Hi Jenny if you make it over to the Main Grand Central thread - 18 week home there are many of us starting this journey with you. Come on over there and join in and meet everyone and introduce yourself to us all. When you get your step one done come on in here and post it and there is a thread for your before photos too. Great to have you on board.

How do I find u guys?
I plan on working on my assignment tonight and posting it tomorrow and I'll add my before photo in just a few..Thanks sooo much!

Jenny! I see you found us over there - you will get the hang of it once you have the system down you will be raring to go - you are doing perfect and Im only an email away if you have trouble - just click on my pic and shoot me an email. You are doing great!!


Kim - fantastic work - wow! I am so stoked that you just took the bull by the horns and DID IT, this shows courage - strenght - and determination and I know you can get to all those goals you have listed!!

Here is my base - have to work tomorrow (I need to go to bed) so I will complete the summit tomorrow.

Assignment #1 Worksheet: Where Are You Now? Where Are You Going?

Having looked inward to do some soul-searching, three heartfelt reasons for making the decision to transform my health and life are:

1) I want to be healthy and have energy so that I can see my son grow up.
2) I am tired of feeling tired and ashamed of how I now look.
3) I am not living the life that God has given me – to have life to the full.

In recent days and weeks, the three most predominant inner feelings I have been experiencing are:
1) Fear of trying to change and failing again.
2) Frustrated at myself for letting my weight get this way.
3) The conflict of wanting to be comfortable versus making the time to do what I know is right.

Three patterns of thinking or beliefs which may have limited my ability to change in the past are:
1) I cannot change permanently so why bother trying.
2) I don’t have the time to exercise and eat healthy.
3) I can do this by myself.

Three objectively verifiable statements which reflect my physical condition right now are:
1) I am 199 pounds with a waist size of 38 (I am 5’3”).
2) I am usually tired and lacking energy.
3) I have skeletal pains from the stress of being overweight – plantar fasciitis because my feet cannot support my current frame.