Tonight I am attending a dedication event for a new veteran's monument in my hometown. It has names all over it, including those of my father and grandfather. It will be "revealed" to the public for the first time tonight.

Amazingly, my grandfather is still alive, and this monument honors his years of service to our country. However, my father died a year ago, after a horrific fight with cancer. My dad's cremated remains have not been "put to rest," due to circumstances that I cannot control. So for me, this will be, in effect, his burial site. And tonight will be, in effect, my first time at his graveside.

I wish I could ask you all to come stand there with me, but I know that's impossible. Tears are rollling down my face, as my relationship with Dad was simultaneously the most difficult challenge I ever had in my life and the person I knew that was always in my corner, should I really need help. How could that be? I don't know. Is it part of who I am? Most defintely. Has it affected my life? Dramatically.

I am facing the fear of the emotions, and going there anyway. I know I can be strong enough to do this. But I don't "feel" like dealing with it tonight. Yet, I will...and I would appreciate any prayers you might offer, for those of you so inclined. No doubt this timing is part of God's sovereign plan for my healing journey.

Thank you, Kimberly

Hi Kimberly,

Although I cannot be there with you in person tonight, as I said on the phone to you, I will be there with you in spirit. I will be the whisper in the wind or the faint tap on your shoulder, in full memory of the joy with which your father and I brought you into this world. I could not be...and I know that he could not be...any prouder of you. Just know that you carry his life forward in the very essence of your being, and that, despite the grief of loss, you...in all you are and do...honor his having been here on earth. I am sure he will be smiling...or maybe making his famous "frog grin", probably now in Heaven telling all the angels to look down upon his daughter "in whom I am well pleased." You KNOW how he loved sometimes to brag!!!!!

I love you immensely!! Love always, Mom

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Originally Posted by danceratheart Hi Kimberly, Although I cannot be there with you in person tonight, as I said on the phone to you, I will be there with you in spirit. I will be the whisper in the wind or the faint tap on your shoulder, in full memory of the joy with which your father and I brought you into this world. I could not be...and I know that he could not be...any prouder of you. Just know that you carry his life forward in the very essence of your being, and that, despite the grief of loss, you...in all you are and do...honor his having been here on earth. I am sure he will be smiling...or maybe making his famous "frog grin", probably now in Heaven telling all the angels to look down upon his daughter "in whom I am well pleased." You KNOW how he loved sometimes to brag!!!!! I love you immensely!! Love always, Mom

Thank you. I love you, too...Kimberly