Bill Phillip's | Transformation

I Am

I am a mother of three wonderful children, 25, 22, and 15 years of age. I am also a grandmother of one very strong-minded little girl. She is four years old (2009). I am facing the empty nest syndrome! Oh-no! I was worried about what I'm going to do without my kiddies. But now I see this as an opportunity to start focusing more on my needs. My need to be healthy, fit, and peaceful inside. I have been with their father for about 27 years, we've never been married. My family, I have been tiptoeing around his alchohol problem for years. I see now that how I've been dealing with this by not dealing with this, ya know? Time to stop looking the other way, stop trying to keep him pacified. By doing that, I was making myself miserable. I loved being the victim, and placing blame on him for my unhappiness. But I wasn't DOING anything to change. Our relationship became stagnant, I became stagnant....I didn't do anything, go anywhere but sit at home and feel sorry for myself. I rationalized that since he cannot control his drinking, then WE cannot go out together. And if WE cannot go out together, then I can't go out at all. So by sitting home, by myself, feeling sorry for myself, I ate, and ate, and got bigger and bigger.

After almost a year of being part of Tcom, I feel empowered. I am out running, I am working out, I am eating right. I always worried that HE would make fun of me, make comments about my attempts at running. At first, he was a little shocked that I was actually doing something so out of the norm for me. Surprised that I started the FIT club at work. Little by little, I'm breaking out of my shell. I am taking back my life! And I feel so much better about myself than I have in YEARS!!! I love this place, and all the wonderful people here, all the friends I have made. I am a woman transforming, I am empowered, I am the change!!!

My Favorite Charity

American Red Cross

To me, Transformation Means

Breaking past your fears! That means not worrying about what others think about what I'm doing. Just get up and do what I have to do. Handle my business, and create my happiness! I have to care about myself, it all starts with me. Because when you love yourself, your spirit soars, and in the process lifts those around you. Transformation means realizing I am worthy of love, and when I accept that and know it deep in my soul, then I have the strength to take action to improve myself, my life, my relationships. Transformation means being open to love, open to everyone which helps me learn, and helps my spirit grow and touch others.

My Goals

For Round 2 - 2009, my goal is to lose 20 pounds, or get into a size 14 (whichever comes first). Another goal is to run a 5k by the end of June. I WILL fit into those capris that I took a picture in at the beginning of my transformation journey last year! Long term goals (measurements): Chest 38, Waist 36, Hips 38.
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My Intentions

I intend to complete each assignment, and focus on each step I am taking. I intend to be an example of what a person can accomplish. I intend to become physically stronger, and spiritually free from the negative, and "little things" that seem to consume my daily thoughts. I want to live each day fully and freely as possible, with lots of love to share with anyone I come into contact with!

Who I'd Like to Inspire

First and foremost, I would like to inspire my kids. Over the years, they have learned to be very negative about people, about any given situation. They learned that behaviour from me, and how I have dealt with my relationship with their father. It is so important to me that I show them that life is full of happiness and blessings, no matter what is happening...there is always a brighter side to things. Secondly, I want to inspire my son. I know he desires to be healthy, but right now I think he worries too much about what people may say if they see him trying to work out. I think he, too, feeds his low self-esteem with food the way I did. I would love to be an example of empowerment, of fearlessness, of happiness, of self-love. If I can change right before his eyes, then maybe he will be inspired to begin his own journey towards transformation. I love him, and I want him to be healthy. He is my only BabyBoy. I want him around for a long, long time.

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