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Lessons I've Learned

Having just recently finished the 18-week challenge, I've learned several things. First: champions do the work and reach their goals. Second: Bill has provided us with the wisdom he's spent a lifetime accumulating. Follow his program to a T and you will succeed. How do I know? Because I goofed-off. Most of the time I ate clean. I did the inner work. However, I refused to journal (I think commiti...

November 18, 2008 | comments (6) | Jackie's Transformation

Hapster is Gone

Saturday, September 6, 2008 Today I grieve the loss of a precious friend who loved me unconditionally. Just last Thursday, I posted a picture, mainly to share with another cat lover, Niamh, of my beautiful big cat, Hapster. Friday, quite unexpectedly, Hapster died. I'm still in shock and more than a little angry with myself.Hapster was not quite 9 years old. He weighed 27 pounds and the vet had been telling ...

September 6, 2008 | comments (12) | Jackie's Transformation

Hairballs and Irritations

July 31, 2008Yesterday I was tempted to quit my transformation challenge. Today, I made a decision. I am staying with my transformation program, but for now, I have encountered a few "hairballs" that I need to get rid of. I am not being negative. I am not whining. I am reassessing what the idea of transformation really means to me. I am taking 4-5 days to talk to God more and listen more, to focus...

July 31, 2008 | comments (14) | Jackie's Transformation

Wisdom - too late for some?

July 30, 2008 I heard this today on the radio: "The problem with life is you're halfway through before you realize it's do-it-yourself." Transformation is also "do-it-yourself." Tonight, I feel like walking away from all of it. No one can stop me. And no one can keep me on goal. I alone must make the decision but the consequences either way, good or bad, will not be experien...

July 30, 2008 | comments (2) | Jackie's Transformation

Choose - Cowardice or Courage

July 30, 2008 Cowardice or Courage? It takes courage to change. It takes courage to be honest. And it takes courage to tell the truth. If we are to truly transform, to actually Be the Change, it will take tremendous courage. We must learn to face the truth. We must be willing to speak the truth. And we must accept the truth when we hear it. That truth starts with us on this transformation journey...

July 30, 2008 | comments (1) | Jackie's Transformation

Dog in a Cat House

When I first joined this website, I was totally lost. Even more than that, I wanted to participate in the forums, but felt I had absolutely nothing to say that anybody would be the least bit interested in. This picture expresses exactly how I felt - like a dog in a cat house! (Uhh, the cuddly, furry kind of cats...just to clarify.) Since joining T.Com in early June, I have made so many friends and found such support for my goals, that...

July 29, 2008 | comments (1) | Jackie's Transformation

Shaping Up and Giving Back

July 28, 2008As some of you know, I spent nearly all of last week, laying low and healing a chest injury and plantar fasciitis, (that stickin' stuff really hurts). It was a week of focusing on all my aches and pains and honestly, by Friday night, even though I could still barely walk and it still hurt to breathe, I was totally disgusted with the whole "me" gig. Saturday morning, I found the cure. I practiced th...

July 28, 2008 | comments (2) | Jackie's Transformation

My Muse has Left Me

July 25, 2008When I posted my picture as my icon yesterday, it was a negative for me. I did it as a consequence for not meeting my goals for the week. I took it down today, as promised. On my birthday, August 17th, I will post a new icon picture as a reward for meeting my goals. It will be a happy experience for me. I'm reframing a negative into a positive. So, until August 17th, my picture is the Me I Se...

July 25, 2008 | comments (11) | Jackie's Transformation

For One Day Only

July 24, 2008 Today I changed my icon picture - for ONE day only. It took more courage than I can express to post any pictures of me, but today I made myself do it. I borrowed a camera since mine broke last week and decided today is the day. Silly, isn't it? Fear is so different for each person. I'll bare my soul in writing, but cover my face for fear of being "revealed." Well, this is a one-day-only eve...

July 24, 2008 | comments (6) | Jackie's Transformation

For You

July 23, 2008 This post is for all transformers. It is a wonderful story about focus and visualization and the best thing of all, success!A young lady named Tara Hall had a dream from childhood of being Miss America. She entered the Miss Florida pageant twice and both times, she came in first runner-up. After her second attempt, she was depressed and tempted to quit. Instead, she made a conscious de...

July 23, 2008 | comments (2) | Jackie's Transformation

Mining the Gem

For the last two days, I've had to lay low and "heal." Sunday, after a great workout at the gym FOR FUN, I bent over to untie my shoes and felt a pop in my midchest. I couldn't move for a minute or two and the pain was intense. Since then, it hurts to breathe and hurts to exert, though today is a little better. I've headed to the gym both days, but just walking in from the parking lot was extremely uncomfortable,...

July 22, 2008 | comments (1) | Jackie's Transformation

Role Models and Success

The importance of a role model cannot be underestimated. I have mine. Do you have yours? Finding someone who has achieved what we want to achieve and then modelling their success will make us successful if we persist. This video demonstrates the power of a role model for a very shy 15-year-old boy in Seattle. Enjoy. It makes for a nice break and a nice reminder... http://www.katu.com/...

July 22, 2008 | comments (1) | Jackie's Transformation

Transformation Turn Signal

July 21, 2008Jeff Foxworthy, the comedian, has some great insights about living in Colorado. One of them is: "You know what a 'fourteener' is, but you don't know what a 'turn signal' is." He's right on that one. When you take to the road in Colorado, you have to bring along your intuition. "Which way you goin', Butthead?" is common road vernacular. You have ...

July 21, 2008 | comments (1) | Jackie's Transformation

An Invitation for You

Here's something I read and thought I would share to kick things off for this gorgeous Friday morning. "Invite yourself to be happy in this moment." I like this thought. It makes me happy....

July 18, 2008 | comments (4) | Jackie's Transformation

I'm Taking a Break

July 17, 2008This will be brief because I'm taking a little blog break today. Now that I have defined my Transformation purpose, I am taking time tonight to focus on the "how" - the action plan that goes further than the physical program. In my statement of purpose, I said that I want to reach out to others and inspire and be of service. So, what does that mean, exactly? Can I start doing something about tha...

July 17, 2008 | comments (3) | Jackie's Transformation

I'm a Yo-Yo Transformer

July 16, 2008 Today, once again, I re-committed to my transformation challenge. It seems to be a near-daily thing for me. I get high on conviction and intent and as the day progresses, I skid with reality and execution. Nuts! I've always been a yo-yo dieter. I did NOT expect to be such a yo-yo transformer!I know this for sure, when I reach the 18 week mark, I will definitely feel a sense of accomplishment i...

July 16, 2008 | comments (4) | Jackie's Transformation

I Lost It....

July 15, 2008 Several hours later - Only a few hours ago, I posted my Transformation purpose and felt a resolve like I haven't felt in years. I felt great. Then, incredibly, four hours later, I lost it! I hit the "skids" so-to-speak and had a classic anxiety attack. For a few horrible moments, my self-talk ripped my mind and my self-esteem: "Who are you kidding? You don't stand a chance ...you're...

July 15, 2008 | comments (5) | Jackie's Transformation

My Transformation Purpose

July 15, 2008 I am a philosopher and a thinker. I think too much and do too little. I am alive, but not truly living. My dreams are still imprisoned within a wall of low self-esteem and fear. I have always dreamt of being the "me" in my imagination. I've stopped far short of living that dream. I am ready to truly "live." Thus I state my Transformation Purpose here. It ...

July 15, 2008 | comments (2) | Jackie's Transformation

My Transformation Rainbow

My world has been black for a long time. Not depressing, just colorless. I have worn black for years because black, I believed, made me look thinner. I've worn black because I have been so overweight, out of shape, and trying to fade into the background. Black was the screen I wore to not be noticed. Strange, isn't it? Nuns and priests and clerics and Islamic women all wear black as a way of "renounci...

July 14, 2008 | comments (1) | Jackie's Transformation

Loving this journey

July 13, 2008 Today is Sunday. After two days of feeling "blah" - just extremely tired and not on top of my game - I woke up this morning ready for the day and full of energy. Just for fun, I jumped on the treadmill and had the best workout I've had yet on that machine! And, it truly was FUN. And this was my scheduled free-day. I've been eating clean, but let life interfere with my exercise for the las...

July 13, 2008 | comments (2) | Jackie's Transformation

Setting Boundaries

July 10, 2008I'm tired tonight ...and not because I had a good workout. I'm tired because I'm totally stressed and it is was nearly 100 degrees today. I work in an upstairs office with NO air conditioning. Heat tends to make me sick and I'm not feeling very well. I still have several hours of work to do tonight (it's now 10 p.m.) after working 10 hours already. Oh, the joys of being self-employe...

July 10, 2008 | comments (2) | Jackie's Transformation

A Worthy Read

Every now and then I read a blog or a thread post that really knocks my socks off. The one that captured me today was all about revolution. If you haven't read RiseandShine's powerful post for today, July 9, please do so. She cuts to the chase with what this transformation is all about. It is a revolution of sorts. Isn't that what "walking the talk" really is, a revolution from idle talk to meanin...

July 9, 2008 | comments (1) | Jackie's Transformation

Today is a New Day

Take a look at this:http://www.transformation.com/media/images/sharingImages/2788_m.jpg May your day be balanced and happy. Blessings to all transformers - Jackie ...

July 9, 2008 | comments (4) | Jackie's Transformation

Motivation Flat-Line Day

July 8, 2008Today was a total motivation-flat-line day for me. I woke up with the "blahs." I didnt' want to work. I didn't want to work-out. I've got a grudge on and I'm angry about, well,, pretty much life in general, I guess. I just don't understand this world and the way things work. Everything seems so backwards to me. Why are the most incompetent parents the most prolific breeders? &nb...

July 8, 2008 | comments (4) | Jackie's Transformation

Connecting the Dots

I love Dollar Tree. It's a store here in Colorado where you can get some pretty cool stuff for only a buck. I recently bought several coloring books for children because I like to have special surprises on hand for unexpected fun. Coloring books are fun - for kids and adults! These coloring books have several "connect-the-dots" pictures in them, challenging kids (and adults) to find the pictu...

July 7, 2008 | comments (1) | Jackie's Transformation

The Demon Shopping Cart

July 6, 2008 It's been a great holiday weekend. I've been sooo good. Worked out and ate as I planned. Partied-hardy Saturday night and didn't even stray from my plan. Today, I decided to take a holiday break. I'm still eating clean, just resting the bod a bit, or so I thought. I planned my meals for the week and headed to the grocery store. The parking lot was full and I had to park quite a-way...

July 6, 2008 | comments (3) | Jackie's Transformation

My Tapestry

July 3, 2008Yesterday was a dark day for me. I didn't exercise. I was angry and sad. My old demons had found me in the midst of a "transformation high" from the day before. Thanks to Shane, DustyLuv, Plantman, ME, and ArtLawrence I have found my way again. They helped me realize that my life is but a simple weaving of days, one day after another, into the tapestry of my life. The colors I use and the texture of t...

July 3, 2008 | comments (8) | Jackie's Transformation

"Crying for Help"

July 2, 2008Man, today I lost my motivation. Yesterday I was so inspired by Plantman that I nearly killed myself at the gym. I felt sooooo good. Today, I feel soooooo bad. And, it isn't the physical that hurts. (Well, truthfully, I could use those bathroom rails that Myoplexlite suggested, but we'll let that one slide.) Today, I found another sabotage demon. I had arranged to be free of work tomorrow.&nbs...

July 2, 2008 | comments (7) | Jackie's Transformation

This One's for Plantman...

Today, I read Plantman's thread. It was the heartfelt reaching out of a man in pain with a vision and the determination to achieve his goals in spite of the pain. He inspired me - more than I can express in words. So, I went to the gym instead. I worked out on the elliptical machine. I started off fine, then at about 8 minutes I started to sputter. I was struggling. My leg muscles were screaming to ...

July 1, 2008 | comments (4) | Jackie's Transformation

Creating with Words

Words have power. Not the words themselves, but the energy they create in us. Years ago, my "buzz word" was "kick. I get a "kick" out of doing this. Isn't that a "kick?" Oh, she's such a "kick." I liked that word. It sounded so "mod." (For those who remember what that word meant!) Then, one summer evening I went with a g...

June 30, 2008 | comments (0) | Jackie's Transformation

Best Threads - and I don't mean Forum Threads

Tomorrow starts the next week of this exciting transformation process. I'm savoring every day that brings new revelations and positive results. Tomorrow, I am adding a personal touch to my program. I have some very nice clothes I seldom wear. They are my very nice fat clothes, my special "threads." They're the the ones I "save" for a special event or when I want to look my best....

June 29, 2008 | comments (4) | Jackie's Transformation

Priorities - The Miracle

Yesterday, I learned a lesson about priorities. I lost $209, but what I learned from the experience was priceless. Yet, the lesson didn't end there! (Please read yesterday's post for that lesson.)When my husband got home from work, he had a sore throat and already felt lousy. I dreaded telling him that I had lost the bank deposit. It took me 2 hours to finally bring up the subject. His reaction w...

June 28, 2008 | comments (1) | Jackie's Transformation

My Lesson in Priorities

Today I lost $209. I made out the deposit slip in my car and somewhere between my home and the bank, which is only 4 miles away, I lost it. I never got out of the car and the windows were closed, so how could it just disappear? I have no idea. Believe me, I looked everywhere for it. Angry and frustrated, I came back home and parked the car. It was 4 o'clock in the afternoon and 90+ degrees.&nb...

June 27, 2008 | comments (1) | Jackie's Transformation

My Inner Demon

Today I asked myself, really asked myself, why am I doing this Challenge? A master at self-sabotage, I have nearly always found a way to cop-out on my dreams. For years, my family has been totally frustrated with something they accurately refer to as my "Intention Deficit Disorder." This is not in any way to mock or minimize the challenges of those with ADD. Let me make that perfectl...

June 26, 2008 | comments (7) | Jackie's Transformation

I've got blisters....OUCH

Yesterday, I was revved up and ready to go. I hit the treadmill at full speed and took off. I was only doing 1 mile because I knew I would be doing my upper body workout later. Well, it was a little hot yesterday morning here in Colorado, so, being home alone, I jumped on the treadmill wearing only my underwear. Now, I'm fat. My thighs are very large and you know that 'SWISH-SWISH" sound you hear when a woman wi...

June 24, 2008 | comments (1) | Jackie's Transformation

Today I prayed

Yesterday sucked. I looked at my pictures and did the assignment and really had issues with myself. Seems like all I did yesterday was cry. Today, thank God, is a different day. I took time to pray this morning: "Lord, walk with me this day. Let your Voice guide me. Let your joy fill me. Let your love heal me. Let your strength transform me...help me to do my part and help me to give back." ...

June 23, 2008 | comments (3) | Jackie's Transformation

Today I Cried

Today I am crying. I look at my "before" pictures and wonder what in the world has happened to me? Why have I let myself fall apart, packing on pounds and sitting, eating, feeling worse and worse about myself? Why? When I finished the BFL Challenge in 2000 I was at my peak physically and felt emotionally and spiritually balanced and "in-touch." Then, I stopped. Got lazy. Made a million excus...

June 22, 2008 | comments (7) | Jackie's Transformation

Transformation Communication

I'm all signed up and psyched to begin my Transformation this coming Monday. I'm so excited that I was talking to some friends, sharing my thoughts, encouraging them to check out this site. They listened politely, but not with the interest I expected given my level of excitement. Than, I remembered a seminar I attended several years ago --The seminar was about becoming a better communicator. One of the exercises was memorable fo...

June 20, 2008 | comments (0) | Jackie's Transformation

I Felt the Burn

2008-06-17 I haven't officially started my transformation yet, but will begin this coming Monday. This week, I have just been getting things in order and gearing up with walking and warm-ups. I'm SOOOOO out of shape - at least 60 pounds out-of-shape. However, today was my first day back in a gym in at least four years. I've had a couple of "false starts" where I was packed and ready to go, but never made it. ...

June 17, 2008 | comments (3) | Jackie's Transformation

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